Saturday, 6 February 2016

Finally Met For Real



"Let me tell him about this..." - Queen

while I was so mad in love enjoying the richness of the cream of red velvet

mmmm yummmehh! srrrrp

"No! Please.. he for sure would never recognized me though."

"Never mind." My Queen was out to find him.

I can clearly hear the witty yet talkative of him coming closer to the room.

"God, he's really coming." I murmured just getting ready to meet and greet in real.

And yeahhh he's in here with my Queen with kinda excited face to see who am I that even I myself dunno what my mom had told him about.

He was like oh really? With the cheeky smiling and whatsoever- uh man.

"Uh really? Tak perasan pun...eh?" bla bla bla bla...

"Yessss see...I've told that he would never recognized me that I was one of his Facebook friend all these while." Two in one I uttered to him and my mom.

Ok chill.

So now we've met in real. That's it. Glad to see ya the cheeky witty Doc Adrian! You cool bro.
Wish all the very best in whatever you do especially in the career, hope in future would see you be one of the renowned specialists and perhaps I can conduct an in person interview with you to be featured in any of tv show well who knows right? Ok I talk like a mom already.

Last but not least, cherish every moment in the life to the fullest alright peeps? We CAN do it!

Have a nice weekend annnnd...HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2016 to all Chinese!

Mucho lafff <3
Doctor or vogue model chatting in a store room?
Oh man, he can't definitely leaves that stethoscope even during lunch break!

I think he might be a super top model if he joins the modelling - no seriously LOL

High stairs from the left.






Thursday, 4 February 2016

Olalalalala Bola Versi Kita-kita aje!


Ini sempena semangat Ola Bola!
tapi style dia beza sikit
sebabnya
tak kira apa sekali pun
sepak-baling-beracun
semua kita kasi pulun!

kau ado?

Tiap petang
kalau tak hujan membasah bumi
akanku dan 'bibik berpengetahuan tinggi ' beraksi
di taman tempat gelanggang kami
port kita orang
as usual.

watchhha!

Best gila best.
Zaman kanak-kanak ribena menerjah kembali dalam diri
yang jasad sudah pun besau ya ampun

*jap confused aku ni umur doploh satu ke duablas?*

I am really sure, and admit that I'm gonna miss all those moments.

Setelah kembali ke dunia semester dua di perth...lis.

Serius aku pasti rindu tahap gaban.

Tapi, that's life...inilah namanya pengorbanan.

Kalau tak masuk semester dua acaner nak grad cerdik!

pastu kalau tak grad acaner nak kerja baguih-baguih and then beli rumah cantik fully furnished cam Dato' Vida Qu Puteh tu?

T.H.I.N.K  S.M.A.R.T

coz there's no one else will comfort you unless you yourself. So happy working and have a nice day peeps!

Remember, be safe everyone :)

All were my new friendsss nonetheless, I'm the eldest - always (sigh)
 Hey! we can't sit back and have a talk and I'll decide which one of you guys I'll choose. 
Kinda busy

Uh whatever guys, I'm not that too desperate.
Cenggini kalau nak dibaling bolanya aduhhh bah- Manni











Hey boy, you nak kincing jangan kincing sini ma..cover sikit haiyaa.







boys over flower as always...guys which one? (none of these two of course..I knew haha) #budak2
Muhammad is fluent in Mandarin tell chuuu *thumb up*





Lari bahhhhhh, bola beracun kauuuu! MATI kang kena.

I don't even know the girls are so tough to make them lose - Qayum 

Tuesday, 2 February 2016

1st Semester Break Baybehh!

Erm erm..I guess it is still not late to wish HAPPY..... NEW YEAR of 2016!

and happy February !

*giggle*

Yeah I know..just after had my semester 1 final exam on 7 Jan last month  oh my god, time really flies fast!
On the 7 Jan I 'ciaw' or make a move to be back in my hometown.

Imagine, all the way from most North region- Perth..lis heading down to East Coast region- Temerloh
be like? 



Seriously, the journey was somehow freaking long! Board on bus 6.45pm and arrived there at about 4.30am
This time, it's pretty special as on the day I arrived was my Queen's birthday for XXth series, find X hehehe.
That's why by hook or by crook, I need to be by her side on the special day just enough with my presence on that day as her birthday present. Simple.

Plus, this time also I am not a lonely traveler as there's new 'bibik' I brought along the freaking long hour journey. Or should called 'bibik with high level of knowledge LOL. (yougotmekiddingManni).
She takes degree program now okay huh and is my dear crazy- in -laughing -like -mad- housemate.

Kau ingat kau cantik sangat HERHHHHH!


***************
Ah I'm so absorbing with this first semester break tell you right!

H.E.A.V.E.N

*thumbs up*

it was like a kind of FREEDOM I tell chuuu woohooo! 

*short term of amnesia version me tehehehe*

The feeling- my goodness, so good to be home to see my beloved mommy that I miss so dearly that we have  not see each other for months wuuuu 

*I'm a mommy's princess and always be her baby girl so just shadddap*
#iamnotashamedgirltoadmit

But guess what?
Though, we did fight of course! Like cat and dog you know hahaha
and then get back along together like nothing happened.
Oh mama I love you to the moon and back my darling fatty Queen eheh! 


Salman- yeah it's him that melts my heart every time during this break!
Muhammad Salman Al-Farisi 
is his name living next door of my house.
The product of love from two continents of Malaysia + Morocco
Uhh damn so cute to be true!
Wanna see him? Scroll down my never-fails-to-cheer-me-up-boyfriend :)

Okay, cut the crap and enough with my rambling.

It just WOW and subhanallah and alhamdulillah for all these, no need much expenditure in a super big shopping complex to therapy self as we can opt to other open way to be happy.
HOW? Just get out of the house and get along with the neighbor's kids and forget all the misery and live the life baby! This is seldom we can experience as for me I will never get a chance to play with kids during study  .
No kids to play with is the big issue so this is it man.
Of course I am the big kid here as always
but who cares? uff whatever as long as I know that I WANT TO  BE HAPPY
Easy.

So guys, I hope more good things happen in your life.

Why not let the photos speak up and do the story for today especially.
Special for dear readers here that I miss and lafffff sooo much mmmmuahhh 
take care and be safe in everywhere you go alright
cause you know..that 'malang tak berbau' (anything can happened) right?

Till next up coming entry zzzzzz


Tuan direktor- "Awak kena into the character even more yeah like I told just now okay paham????"


Nice background scene HAHAHAHA #biggreendustbinandbumpsignboardandtreespluswiththesmallbluechair



Salman: Chase me if you can! #with Ah Kak Su and Auntie 


Mouth and Feet totally same running like popcorn my god this kid!
Ah kak! Look..peace! 

see...persis gaya 'bibik' right? hehehe #janganmarahmaktamno


Oh you can never imagine how to persuade this boyfriend to go home! 



Ahh ahhh sakit ah kak sakit! HAHAHAHAHA 


See! muka tak nak balik dari playground plus muka FREEDOM and satisfaction on the face. 

Friday, 18 December 2015

Have Faith

Jangan pernah lelah dengan semua ini
semuanya sementara 
sebelum ke alam sana
demi berehat selamanya

Jangan pernah lelah dengan semua ini
kerna ini dunia yang menipudayakan 
terpulang sama akal mahu berfikir
baik atau buruk
dosa dan pahala

Jangan pernah lelah dengan semua ini
bangkit dan berjuang habis habisan
pantang sebelum menyerah
tanpa berkata kalah sama sekali

Permainan dunia
terkadang menjerumus ke dalam gaung kekhilafan
terpesong dari landasan kebenaran
semua jadi goyah
jika tidak 

Have Faith


Taken from my darling Sony TX10 #MasjidTerapung

Monday, 14 December 2015

Rest Well Tunku Abdul Jalil

I may not or even not know you at all
we even didn't for once never face to face in real
but...
honestly 
the first time I 'knew' you right away my heart had melted 
I've fallen in love in with your soft and beautiful soul that you posses 
the way you speak up
the coolness in you that enhance your charisma 
indeed your humbleness and sense of humor
has really caught my attention to always stalking on your indirectly through one this kind of social media
you were so active in there 
though not only me admire you but all other people as well.

I truly salute how humble and modest you were though you were royal son
until I had expressed to my 'queen' once before
how cool to have someone humble as you as a husband 
if and if only it do happened
or the least what if I have a golden opportunity to meet you in real as a friend just only for once?
you know I love to sink in my own world so yeah 
yet I realized it would kinda impossible to be real 

It was so inspiring of how brave you are to fight for the liver cancer that is you have never wanted for
right?
So there others that experience the same illness as you
but there it is to show how Allah really loves His servants.

He tested you with this kind of illness
liver cancer.

I am so over the moon whenever to see your update photo in the instagram
you look so thin and never-give-up-person 
though you are bearing with intense pain 
still a full smile showed at your face.
No wonder the whole nation really admire and love you so dearly

However,
Last Sunday...as today 
it was a shocking news to hear that you had passed away
due to liver cancer stage four and you were weakening for all these past few months
My heart was like stop from beating for sec when Nina, my housemate said that
you just passed away just now.

At first it was hard and I reluctant to accept the fact that you had gone
or whether it just a rumor solely
It was totally unexpected at all about the news 
indeed it was so hard to believe.

Truth be told
you really had gone.
I speechless
truly speechless indeed

I checked on your instagram and figured out that the genuine account has been deleted
out of the blue
while the news about you had passed away was true and valid.

All was happened in just a blink of eye really
It must be a difficult time for your family and relatives especially to embrace this for sure
you know that I envy of you know?
You have all cousins that really loves and they feel the loss of you
 I admit I cry 
to see how one of your beloved cousin expressed the grief 
I just cannot 
this was truly made me touched.

Johor now has a great lost of a beautiful yet thoughtful prince as you

No matter what it is
this has always comfort me to be embrace and redha

"From Him we come and to Him shall we return"

and

"Every souls should taste the feel of death"

and I do believe that this is your perfect time to be back to Allah  and He loves you so much so that you don't have to endure the intense pain you bear for all these while anymore.


I believe that you are in a better place over there.

Rest well Almarhum Tunku Abdul Jalil Bin Zarith Sofia

Al-Fatihah.












Sunday, 13 December 2015

Shame on me duh!

12 December 2015 [Sabtu]



        Aku dan teman serumah Mai, Nina dan Yani keluar ke bandar cadangnya untuk bermain bowling semata-mata. Kiranya satur-date di hujung minggu gituuu. 

*tarik nafas*

Plan nak naik bas (yang telah disediakan pihak universiti) pukul 10.15am dan untuk hujung minggu bas disediakan setiap dua jam sekali. Kira cantiklah timing naik bas pukul 10.15 sampai Kangar sedang elok bowling pun dah buka. 

Nak ditakdirkan tiga orang cik kak-cik kak kita ni masih lagi diulit mimpi..al-maklumlah cuti hujung mingggu..bujang pulak tu..tak ada anak kecik tak ada laki..ooohoii sodap lah mereka membuta.

masih kroh kroh krohhh di waktu 9.40am.

Aku? --- Eh aku anak Cik Puan Maznah haruslah menjaga brand 'company' yang gah gitu! 

*hiks*

Lepas subuh idok ler kome kroh kroh serupe depe ni yop! --- aku merenung skrin laptop terchentaku di ruang tamu sambil menunggu si Amie yang tak nampak batang hidungnya yang janji semalam nak datang pukul 8am (lepas subuh katanya) nak ajar guna software Pinnacles.

Ruang rumah sunyi sepi bila waktunya untuk S.U.N.Y.I

Kama dan Yaya pula belum matahari terpacak atas kepala dorang dah keluar untuk sukan freshie.
Hanan yang 'kembang' lagi comel roomate hamba pun sama g kem pebenda ntah 
bila ditanya kat mana lokasi kem
"Entah..tak tahu"
eeee rasa nak punch punch mek ni tau!

Si Suri a.k.a Manni Sabah pun sama terpukang atas katil lena di alam mimpi. Mimpi candle light dinner dengan Pak Tam barangkali wakaka!

Okay..duk bebel gini pun dah makan hampir sepuluh minit kot? 

*tehehehe*

9.43am- kulihat jam di skrin laptop ---HOI!! dorang ni tak bangun lagi kata nak p main bowling ish!

*Aku bangun dengan sedikit gusar di hati bimbang tak sempat bas*

Aku masuk bilik Yani - "Yani...Yani...bangun cepat..cepat mandi kata nak g main bowling"

And this woman reply to me with fall asleep back! ---Goshhh!

Then, aku masuk pulak bilik Mai gerak 'mak' aku ni..."Mai...cepat cepat bangun jom kata nak p main bowling..bas 10.15 ceeeeepaaaaatt!" 

*in my kalut way as always heee*

Pada masa itu semestinya aku sudah siap cuma tinggal buka langkah nak g tempat bas.

Dorang masih dalam bilik air..baru nak gosok baju tudung etc etc etc walao weyhhh!

"Aku g dulu! Tahan pak cik bas tu..ceeeepat! cepaaat!" sebab dalam hati aku chance 50-50 untuk ditinggal bas dan kiciwa adalah tinggi hohoho :(

which I wish don't want it to happen oh puhhleassee 

Dalam bas bernombor 30, tunggu masa nak jalan dan penuh dengan pelajar yang ingin outing dan mungkin nak p balik rmh kot

*bawa bagpack--masih sempat aku perhati haha*

Dan Pak Tam (driver bas ) masih boleh melawak pulak dengan aku kata bas ni nak p Jejawi pun boleh since aku tersasul nak sebut KWSP tapi disebabkan kalut apo nak sobut pun jadi lain derr hew hew hew.

"Nuh ada lagi kawan pak cik...sat sat.." Aku kata bersungguh lalu naik mencari seat kosong untuk duduk.

Dalam kiraan sepuluh...kak cik-kak cik kita yang 3 orang ni masih tak sampai-sampai wehhh! 

Bas mula masuk gear dan bersedia nak bergerak dan dah bergerak dengan perlahan!

Aku yang sedang menelefon Mai bangun dan menuju ke pak cik dan Paktam driver bas tu,

"Pak cik STOP STOP STOP! Sat sat sat dorang dah on the way...sat sat"

*sambil jari laju menekan butang call Mai* grrrr jatung dah dup dap dup takkan aku nak g naik bas sorang-sorang tak syoklah kan???


Pak Tam dengan slumber dan cool berkata- "Dah cukup time..otw tu kat rumah lagi aihhh..kami ada trip nak p mata ayer lagi ni..naik bas pukul 12.15 lah lambat dah ni."

*SERBA SALAH* - akulah tu! 

"Mai mana kauuu?!! CEEEEPAAAT CEEEEPAAT LARRRRRRIIII LAAARIII! Bas nombor 30!" Aku tinggikan suara di hujung telefon dengan sedikit emo dan segala macam perasaaan ketika itu.

*dan masih tak nampak batang hidung mereka bertiga dari arah bas*

Astaghfirullah... astaghfirullah

*chill this is not a kind of big deal..it is just a small matter.* ---cuba tenangkan diri sendiri.

Dan untuk kali entah keberapa aku call lagi Mai "Wehhh ceeepatt! lari lari!" 

"Ohh nuh depa..." Terdengar dari mulut Pak Tam 

What a relieve man~ 

seriously

first ever in my life

#takpasalpasalakufemesdbuatdramadalambasharisemalam 


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Explorace berbulan lepas punya cerita tehehehe

spot me! Mai kata aku dress up tudung cam nak p pantai kau hado? haha


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     TIME MANAGEMENT- -- moral of the story ya kawan-kawan :)

Aku cuba control segala perasaan yang terbuku di hati yalah it was just a simple thing yet a BIG ISSUE in time management. And yeah I did it! 

*to control all the devil me wahahaha! tapi of course perempuan dan bebel etc etc  tak dapat dipisahkan right?*

Aku cerita ke deme2 ni macam mana aku buat drama dalam bas FIRST EVER IN MY LIFE

malu weh seriously aku malu- anak Cik Puan Maznah buat drama dalam bas just untuk housemates-nya naik sekali bas supaya dia tidak keseorangan di Kangar tercangguk melongok sesorang nanti.

Haihhhh


Make it short, bowling penuh cos ada tournament hari ni 

*sakit pulak hati kita*

Shopping cekelat jap kat The Store then we planned to have karaoke

Okay?

Hmmm okay lerrr

Dari I jam sampai extend jadi 2 jam = RM50 

fuuuhh terbang 

*divided by 4*

Nak terkeluar anak tekak ceq baq hang oiii! 

But aku ENJOY seumpama melepaskan dan mencampakkan segala rasa tension dan segala mak nenek yang menyerabut di kepala ni 

*really*

Well basically okay la kot like it is kinda of  reward to myself for my all hardworking in settling all those pile of works and assignments these before

*phew!*

Lepas 2 jam 'melalak' ~

tiba masa untuk pulang lalalalala

Hah ini lagi cter best nak habaq ke hampa semua 

*sigh*

.

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Ceritanya gini...kami berempat tak balik naik bas sebab si Sham, adik angkat boyfriend Nina ambil dan tolong hantar balik hostel since dia sewa kereta sebab lepas ni nak p keluar dengan kembar dia.
Nina tak ikut sebab kembar Sham buat sepcial request untuk just spend time mereka berdua adik beradik je.

*siblings-day-out i tell chuuu*

Sebelum Si Sham sampai, Mai kata dia haus..okay fine aku teman 'mak' g kedai First Touch beli air mineral. Dari jauh Sham dah sampai dan Nina dan Yani duk lambai ke aku.

Okay...kereta tu sat lagi yang aku dengan Mai kena naik. 

Selesai beli air, aku dan Mai pun lintas jalan nak g ke kereta. 

Ada 2 yes DUA kereta Toyata Wish yang SAMA warna ketika itu.

Aku ulang sekali lagi...

DUA Toyata Wish warna yang SAMA (Dark Silver)

Mai jalan depan sikit dari aku

It happened too fast you know 

Maigaddddd

Dari jauh sempatlah aku baca dalam hati 

"plat WA ....hmm kereta baru ni"

Dan meneruskan langkah lalu membuka pintu kereta tersebut dengan penuh YAKIN

yes yakin.

Dalam hati aku kata "Eh? asal Sham macam besau sikit badan dia.."

Dan mata aku sempat memandang Mai yang terus melangkah menuju masuk ke dalam perut kereta Toyata Wish di hadapan kereta yang entah pintu kereta siapa yang aku buka tu!!!!!

"Ya Allah! Wehhhh maaaaaluuuuuunyaaaaaa!!!!!!!"

Sambil aku berlari bagai tak cukup tanah g ke kereta depan yang terpakir menunggu aku masuk.

"Aku salah buka pintu kereta orang wehhh maluuuuunyaaaa!"

*dan seharusnya mereka gelak barai terbahak-bahak akan aku*

samapaikan sehingga saat aku menulis entri ni pun malunya bukan kepalang masih terasa

Entah aku pikir apa sampai boleh tersalah buka pintu kereta lain

Duh! what a shame.


and that stranger man for sure mesti pelik bin hairan pehal manusia manalah yang tetiba buka pintu kereta nak duduk belakang dalam kereta dia??!

belum sempat tengok reaksi mamat tu aku dah pun berlari lintang pukang masuk dalam kereta yang sepatut aku masuk 

kalau tak boleh tengok his face expression kan? 

Terkezzut bin hairan bin pehal minah ni masuk kereta aku tetibe!

Ah bukan aku sengaja kan?

Benda nak jadi

Tapi semua tu adalah sejenis memori yang akan terpahat dalam timeline kehidupan aku

sampai bila-bila. 


#timemanagementitutersangatlahpenting

#tersalahbukapintukeretasangatmemalukandaridramadalambas 

#memoriterciptalahsangat

till meet in the next entry and have a nice day ahead my darling readers!

xoxo 

#shame

Sunday, 29 November 2015

Cause Love is what matter most

Assalamua'laikum dear lovelies and awesome readers!

(well, you know who you are so smileeeee :)

Let me share something with you guys here which I have kept it to be written for so months. But then again, you know time always jealous not only on me but to all of us AM I RIGHT? 

So, at least im gonna to share about it finnnnallly! 

*sigh*

*note: this is going to be a long rambling, bear in mind dear peeps!*


    Frankly speaking, I had never had the opportunity to see my own grandfather or grandmother as they both passed away before I was born. So, that's what we called fate right? I just can be redha..that's it.

   But today, not about them that I would share about. It's about another person which I assumed he's the replacement of my own grandfather that comfortably being called "Atuk" and his beloved wife "Wan".
They're such a perfect loving couple regardless how old they are.

   You guys must be wondering how on earth I got to know these two folks isn't?

     Simple, their one and only daughter is my mom's close friend since high school despite they are in different class. At first they lost contact for years after finished high school, all of them have their own life, got married and have kids untill...one this moment Aunt Jaz's son admitted in ward which to be happened in the department where my mother was working. From there, they keep in touch back again until now. 

    Make it short, in 2010 vividly I can recall this one kind incident that Atuk was admitted into hospital. Days before my mom had a call with Wan and she told that Atuk was having high fever. You know old man, too stubborn to see doctor in the hospital. They rather go to private clinic and get medicines and have set in mind that the fever will get ok in few days ahead. Then done! 

     So, only after that during his admittance the kidney need to be dialysis-ed since that organ was not working properly to pass urine etc. Guess what? That's was the first ever in Atuk's life he undergoes a kidney dialysis.What a surprise and by that can you imagine how critical his condition is? 
He was also almost be placed in ICU due to the on and off stable which means anything could happened that moment! My god...

     Then, on the consecutive day during Ramadhan in the late evening almost time for breaking fast and my mom and I was on the way home from our relative's place. While she's driving, phone ringing stated 'Jaz'. I gulped and answered for my mom. On the phone I heard and sense that Aunt Jaz was crying so hard to express what was actually happened. I was like thinking that it must be regarding Atuk..or Atuk has...

    OK stop it. She has not says anything yet..be positive. But far in my gut have notions that Atuk might has passed away. Well, basically Aunt Jaz was crying so hardly and what was the logic due to that? If it's the real time for Atuk to go at that moment then no choice, it was beyond our control cause every soul will be feel the taste of death sooner or later, today or tomorrow anytime! So be prepare..

     Mom was looking at me while focusing on driving and take the phone from me. She tried to calm Aunt Jaz and make her to tell what was going on actually. That woman in so depth of despair however just said "abah maz..abah...datang sekarang abah...abah...".  

     Now tell me what do you feel when she says like that? With tears and words to be said all going together. So, forget and cancel about ayam percik in bazaar ramadhan, top priority was heading to hospital now!

     Only god knows when we reached in the busy ward, all close relatives, siblings all surrounding the bed in despair and tears hoping for miracle to happen. I was so speechless, standing still calming myself while my mom went to see the doctor and discuss of what's going on with Atuk actually. What I knew was Atuk was totally unconscious and we just able to pray for the best.

     God's power, Atuk was given second chance fighting with his ill. You know the '3 serangkai' ills?      -Diabetes, High blood pressure, heart problem and many more. That old man even can drive his Proton Saga with his beloved wife, Wan for a stroll! Cool right? Like he has never been sick before lol. --Amazing atuk.

    Years by years going on after that until 2015 that is this year. It was about 4 months ago, during raya time. I don't know my heart really wanted to visit this loving bird at their place plus it made me even wanted to go to see them once Aunt Jaz texted saying that Atuk was not very feeling well lately. 

     I without doubt, by using my persuasive power asking my sweetheart mom to pay them a visit. Moreover we have not meet quite a long time so why not? Plus truth to be told Atuk was actually not very well. 

    So yes, we visited them and spend our raya together on that evening. As informed, Atuk was weak, bed lying sleeping for the whole day. How poor right? I can't imagine what will going happened to me when my age reach 67 something. Gulp!

    Atuk asked me "how was study? Am I fully recovered yet? " In my eyes, that old man was so like seriously looked ill and weak but I whispered in my heart that everything's going fine. Chill. He even forced himself to wake up of the bed just to join our conversation in the living room. Atuk complains that he was suffering from big swollen feet these few days and it was painful. All in all, he refuses to go to hospital to see doctor. Well said huh! My mom tried her luck in convincing him to see doctor in hospital, had a slow talk and explained nicely just in case if he wants to see doctor tomorrow? Then in the middle of chit chatting, he suddenly falls asleep on sofa zzzzzz. Poor atuk..

     Mission accomplished, Atuk finally relenting to see doctor and it is not a surprise to have him admitted in the ward for further supervision. As for me, oh it's okay..as just like last time in 2010 the same thing he has been admitted and Atuk will get better soon, so no worries. 

    Thus, my mom will pay him a visit to see his condition whether he is comfortable or not besides help to scrubbing since Atuk unable to wake up and walk to the bathroom and feed him foods---though after lots of convincing. Meanwhile Wan, the strongest ever lady that always be there for Atuk in whatever situation is. Never for once she leave Atuk alone in hospital even after we persuaded her to have some rest at home just let Aunt Jaz wait for a while for Atuk. A big NO all the time the answer would be. "How come I leave Atuk, my other half lying weakly here on hospital bed and go home? No. It's okay, he needs me here, I must take care of him my husband no matter what it is." ---Fine Wan as you wish hmmm. Both same stubborn but sweet.

    That week, the whole week from Monday to Thursday...mom will updates about Atuk when she's home. The most shocking one was on Friday. I could remember of it clearly. I came down stairs to see mom in the kitchen and as usual what's up with atuk? When he's going to be discharged? Is he eats today things like that.
Mom keeps quite..then up her head towards me collecting the strength to tell it. Seriously, I didn't expect anything at all!

Slowly and calmly she said that "Atuk dah tak ada...baru lagi tak ada lepas asar tadi, masa mama naik kat ward doctor tengah buat CPR...atuk dah tak ada."

And tears coming down from the eyes can't be hold anymore...ya Allah.. innalillahi wainnaila hirojion.

I just saw him on Sunday and on Monday he willingly to see the doctor after my mom persuaded him to do so! His condition just not so critical and we didn't expect of all this. And now he's gone? Is this just a dream or what? 

 My heartbeat such stopped from beating  for a sec once be told of that news :(

All in all, back in 2010 Atuk was given the second chance to live more up till now within 5 years and it's the time for him to go now. The illness was only the cause but it is actually the time. Neither quick nor late for a sec. That's what Allah promised us. 

To us, that still living with no health problems etc, DON'T expect that you are going to die late. Furthermore, be grateful and appreciate people around you before it is too late. You know what im trying to say...ehem

We will never know--- so be kind and treat to our beloved person, mom, dad,siblings, grandfather, grandmother etc  nicely with full of our heart.

You know, no matter how much of mother that we do have but REMEMBER that we do only have one BIOLOGICAL MOTHER who has fighting her life and death in delivering us into this world. Hug them tightly, say I LOVE YOU everyday to her, please her sincerely. Not to forget to our father who has always be there for us despite through thick and thin.

Just love them...

Cause love is what matter most <3

P/s: I Love you mama and abah to the moon and back, muahh cikit! 

(Al-fatihah to Allahyarham Jaafar may he will be placed in the best place among the solehin there)


Wan and Aunt Jaz during Amar's birthday celebration and their high school reunion

Last raya picture of Allahyarham Atuk. 

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