Monday, 25 December 2017

Ya Qamar

That is mean the moon in Arabic

To add on,

ياقمراً في السماء

Ya Qamarun fissama' which give the meaning the moon that is up in the sky.

Honestly, my heart is just blooming when listening to Arabic language which I myself hardly to describe into words. All in all, this haven language has its own unique and special that is no doubt which uttered by God.

To be frank, I am so blessed to be meant and surrounded by these fellow nice friends in my life. This is a beautifully, mesmerized written takdir (something meant by Him) from Allah to me through you. Indeed, personally I hope there will be a lot of good deeds even as tiniest of seed that I can offer to any people without hoping any return and am happy to offer my assistance in any points the best that I can. Let us hope that I will shine and spark brightly just the way my name is - Munirah,The Lighting that will shine bright other's life as well insha'Allah.

Friends forever? InshaAllah

Learning Arabic but baby step


Monday, 4 December 2017

Advice for myself

would be

"Take care of yourself." 

Whilst the mind was not focusing of what had said. Again U called, "Hey.." and gesture to my earphone.

Quickly I turned off the music I played on You Tube. With bare expression I looked at him

"Look at me. Take care of yourself." 

And till now I am hanging in there for accomplishing a degree in new media communication here in this certain university 

Hang in there dear self,
there are lot of obstacles to go through further
just hang in there

cause from now on you have to take care of yourself

dear self.

Wednesday, 29 November 2017

Spread Kindness

Good morning world!

As i am writing this, i am in the bus heading to class in Kubang Gajah. Today, i push myself to have liltle bit change from previous day which i need to study at least one subtopic from this certain subject.

From few months ago, we all are so pack and occupied with tasks and assignments be it for individually or group. This semester, we all have to put effort much on exploring new things specially those who is a newbie in 'digesting' Adobe Illustrator and Photoshop. Even up till now final exam is around the corner, still messed up to finish all the haven't done yet -assignments.


That is the screaming inside of me that is struggling to get close and fall in love with Ai and Photoshop. Truth be told,the struggle is real when you have no basic knowledge at all. Though you watched so many times the tutorial from Prof.YouTube.

To be make it short, my darling 'brothers' from Uno Gang have really help me a lot. When I ask a favor for the I even can't remember of the time but one of my brother from another mother said

" I will not feed you fish but I will teach you how to fish the fish." -Nasr

A very good brother. See the way he thinks? Brilliant. Means, he wants me to learn in the good way, so the knowledge will stay longer within me. Understood.

Meanwhile, my another brother from another womb, U is not exceptional in lending his hand for me. This helpful one even sacrifices the sleep and time for making what I plan go as planned. I'm touched honestly. That's why being the only child in the family had always makes me wanna have brothers especially where we would always share the laugh and tears to each other, be partner in crime and get good together back and achieve success together. Okay enough, that cannot be happened it's been destined and I have to believe this is the best. Trust me, though it uttered " you are like my real sister or brother." That feeling would never ever be the same instead how many times we expressed the love towards our foster siblings. All in all, to maintain the friendship and spend the quality moment with them all. Still, I am blessed to meet and know these inspirational people alhamdulillah.

By the way,if you guys happened to read this, thank you from the bottom of my heart.I just hope these kind of people will always be blessed and protected and showered by His blessing for any good deeds done by them and

Let it always be sparkling


Thank you. Yes you.

Sunday, 19 November 2017

Stress, Let's Break Up.

It has been five minutes before I begin to write this sentence. Lots of pending ramblings I would love to pour here but, some how it stuck here in - the mind.

Okay chill. Breathe.

There is so enormous things scatter all inside this brain indeed. Mostly regarding the so-called word of assignments which haven't settled yet. One after another and another and list goes on and on and on..,


It is not a life if there is no trouble or test or such roller coaster road where we would have an ups and down. One thing that U had told me last night,

La yukallifulllahu nafsan illa wus'aha 
Allah will not burden any of human being with more than he is well able to bear
Al Baqarah:286

Point is, whatever the past that had we endured whether it were hurting deep inside and things like that, just let it be as the reason or hikmah (good reason) for us to be what we are right now. 
The past let it be the past, but steer the focus on the future cause we are heading forward not backward. It is ourselves to make the choice, it is our ourselves and our responsibility to create our own story to attain happiness. 

So why so stress?

Take a chill pill, relax.


Under pressure? Take a break in a while.

Tuesday, 14 November 2017

Hurtful Promise.

Hey, I promise no one is going to hurt you. Promise.”

I reply silent.The gaze was at me waiting for any feedback from my side. 
Empty inside, lost. Cause the one who utter that promise, is the one who hurt me the most.
Seriously it’s hurt.Though was about small tiniest matter
Yet the sensitive side of me was so overly sensitive to be true today.
Shame on me.
No. Shame on my heart.

That is so fragile.

Friday, 3 November 2017

Salah Dan Faham Dan Salah

Salah faham 
meremukkan tali persahabatan
tiada niat tidak puas hati terzahir sungguh
salah faham 
nyah kau dari sini
hanya kerana kau 
tercetus kata perbalahan
juga kerana kau-salah faham

demiMu tuhan
aku terkedu

batu salah faham

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

I almost..

Gave up! Seriously with joining this so-called Modern Bride Show in conjunction of convocation festival in my university.

At first, it seems okay Janns and Sophia but Janns be like 50-50. Since Janns knows how to do make up, I must persuade her no matter what.

Few weeks later, I bumped into Janns and asked if she agreed and serious to join this competition. Insufficient make up tools is okay, we can buy.

"You going to participate right?"

"No I don't want to."

Fine. You just get lost out of my sight. Okay that I just utter in my heart.

"Uhuh OKAY NEVER MIND!" Dissapointedly I replied.

And there it goes on and on I feel like giving up. Though this is the best plan from God to me. Maybe He just wants me to concentrate with theater since the date for both bridal show and theater would be on the same day but on different time.

Then, my fingers swiftly Whatsapp Palie, my virtual friend who is a photographer asking if he know any makeup artist here in Perthlis or Northern region. Make it short, Reiymei come to the rescue all the way from Kedah.

I swear the process in getting this makeup artist (MUA) to come join this Modern Bride Show was so with ease and smooth alhamdulillah.  Though, at first, we had misunderstanding where he thought he needs to bring his own model which is NOOoo! Alright, chill Moon...get this MUA clear with detailed information.

"Nononono, you have no need to bring any model with you cause what..I am the model and you as the MUA and Sophia as assistant MUA."

"Okay got it but I have one issue here. I don't have transport cause I'm taking train from my place to there. You need to fetch me or else I might get lost to Siam (Thailand) by train"

"Right, I will fetch you from train station in Arau, no worries."

"One thing, how about the registration fees?"

"That, it's on me okay so now deal you are coming to my university?"

"Sure I will come to this bubbly's girl university."

*red face*

On the day, I and Sophia hopped on MyBus to fetch him and even earlier I said to this MUA Reiymei that we are going to fetch him by MyBus not YourBus hahaha!

"I have no problem at all."Thank god...

Then, I and Sophia arrived earlier and we had a late breakfast near the KTM Arau while waiting for his arrival.

"I had arrived, but theres one friend coming with me."

"Okay wait at the front of KTM entrance I come to you now. May I know what do you like to have for lunch? And drink?"

"Chicken rice and iced coffee please.."

Done with lunch, we straight away heading to university main campus where the competition is going to be held. Meanwhile I overheard Reiymei told his friend, Hisyam to make up me with one this particular style. I was like don't you make my face look like dracula mannnnn.

Chill...breathe in...breathe out. With Sophia argued to take Uber not MyBus to our university in Pauh. I then agreed.

The procees in dressing up and making up me went well and smoothly. This talented MUA Reiymei to be honest has a specialty in special effect make up even has ten years of experience in doing this thing. He even owns and runs his own production house calle Red Chillies Production.

"Why red?" I asked spontaneously.
"Cause I love red." He said confidently with a light smile on his lip.

" you know what you are the one and only outsider to come here. The rest are students."

He seems pretty shocked with my words. So we set the target we could win this competition.We were given an hour to getting ready and everything and he did his job so efficiently amagaddd even Sophia was there keep observing and adore how this MUA works.

It was also my first time asked to wear that artificial eyelashes. How it felt? Freaking heavy and uncomfortable at first but I get used to it.

"You never had wear this stuff right?"

"That's true."

"Nevermind, it's normal to feel uncomfortable but gradually would be alright. Okay open your eyes slowly.."

Suddenly, Dr Mai came in to the make up room and approached me.
"Oh it's you Munirah I almost didn't recognize you! Wow, you can get married after this."

Sure, just pass me a tall, fair and handsome man and I will say "I do" now. She burst into laugh and wide smile.

Done with make up, it's time to cat walk on the stage in front of the judges. My over long and narrow dark blue mermaid dress was like stucked while I getting ready to climb the stage's stairs.

"Please don't get stumble on the stage please dont get stumble it will be shame in front of these people please." I speak to myself with heart thumping like crazy frog.

So what I do was hold a bit the lower part of the dress while do the walk on stage where all eyes were watching at me presenting the bridal dress. Whatever.

I noticed Reiymei,Kimi and Sophia were watching from the seat in front of stage. I just smiled to cover my nervous and the emcees is now going to announce the winnerrrrr!

Dup dap dup dap

We won as the first runner-up

I know what was the lacking -the walk on stage.

As for me, is better to win second place rather than stumbled on the stage and I don't know where to hide my face.

I ramble a lot tonight, but before I pen off let's see the artwork done by Reiymei okay? Okay.

In short, never give up even until last minute. We do planning, Allah is also planning but His plan is the best. Thank you so much to Reiymei for having me and make this to reality and Sophia too! I love you guys :)

That feeling of almost giving up tho

The marvelous stupendous gorgeous effect

Be optimistic for everything

Mystery Transformation

My friend were shocked to see this photo thinking I got married. Nah im not okay.
I look like an opera woman amagad


Bride and talented MUA Reiymei

One team


Can I go wander in your heart?

Yasss we did it!

Sunday, 29 October 2017

Speechless Whisper to Him

O Allah
I really ask for you favor
let me hang in there
protect me from any people that broke my heart
cause deep in here it felt so hurt that make me speechless

O Allah
The All Hearing most of the time
hang me in there
to get through all this messiness
and get back on right track
when I'm in lost
for I have a lot to settle here in this world



Tuesday, 10 October 2017

Seal with Love But..

Be careful with it

Cause it is fragile thus please handle with care

For I am too, a human with that feelings

In the midst of feeling over the moon

Deep inside my heart is in the shed of tears

Silently unexpressed

Let only God soothes this wounded heart

Though gradually but His cure

is the best

Allah ya Wadud

The All Loving <3

Life's too short, cherish while it last. ENJOY!

Saturday, 23 September 2017

Cinta Untuk Jasmin 7

        Usai bertemu bersama klien di sebuah hotel terkemuka di ibu kota, Imran melangkah keluar dari kafe hotel untuk pulang ke pejabat dan tiba-tiba bahunya terlanggar bahu seseorang yang pernah dia kenali sebelum ini. Personalitinya masih tidak berubah sejak kali terakhir mereka bersama sebelum masing-masing memutuskan untuk membawa haluan masing-masing dan kini setelah dua tahun mereka dipertemukan di bumi Malaysia ini.

 “Im? Imran?” Tegur wanita berambut perang gelap sambil membuka cermin mata hitamnya. “It’s you Imran Firdaus? Oh my…” Wanita itu sudah mendekati Imran kelihatan teruja terserempak dengannya pada hari ini.

“Zatasha? Hai…” Imran sekadar berbasa-basi tidak berniat sombong. “Babe, thought you are in London! It’s been two years since we broke up and then you lost just like that.” Zatasha memetik jarinya spontan. “Yeah, here is my home back then. You buat apa kat sini Sha? Bukan ke you stay overthere, London?” 

“I’m on business trip so alang-alang balik kampung sekali visit my parents. Well, why not we have a cuppa to catch up of each other’s story?” Imran lantas mengerling ke arah jam tangannya dan bersetuju untuk minum bersama wanita tersebut.

“Im, you know how terribly I am missing you sayang?” Jujur tanpa Imran sangka ayat sedemikian meluncur laju dari mulut Zatasha sejurus mereka mengambil duduk di sebuah sudut di kafe Hotel Royal Chulan. Imran sengaja membisukan diri hanya memandang tepat ke dalam mata Zatasha. “Okay, fine I’m sorry for all what had happened for those years. Just for you to know that after we clashed, baru I rasa satu kehilangan besar dalam hidup I Im. I missed your smile, your laugh, your jokes everything…” Imran sekali lagi diam tanpa bicara hanya membiarkan Zatasha meluahkan perasaannya.

“Hey, say something please? Don’t you miss me hmm?” Soal Zatasha penuh mengharapkan simpati.
“You chose fashion than me. I have lost to your ever dream carrier. I have moved on now.” Tutur Imran dalam senada suara yang sedikit kecewa. Zatasha tertunduk berasa kesal atas keputusan yang telah dia lakukan pada dua tahun dahulu. “Sayang, I am so so sorry…I knew I’ve hurt you and am really sorry. Please forgive me?”

Imran tersenyum ikhlas lalu mengatakan bahawa dia telah lama memaafkan Zatasha dan untuk kembali bersama seperti dahulu besar kemungkinan tidak.
“But why? We can start over you know? Like we used to be before? I love you so much Im…and I don’t want to lose you again.” Pinta Zatasha penuh mengharap.

“Simple,we’re not meant to be together Sha. I’m getting married soon, and I hope you too would move on and find any man out there that are better than me.” Zatasha senyum sinis mendengarkan kata-kata bekas kekasihnya ini. “They will never be the same. I want you. Only you, my desire, my hapiness and my only one. You bohong kan fasal nak kahwin just to avoiding me?”

“I’m serious. Look Sha, between us are nothing now but history. I hope you akan jumpa dengan lelaki yang jauh lebih baik dari I and you both will happy ever after with kids, grandkids and great grandkids.” Imran memujuk menyedapkan hati Zatasha. “Siapa wanita bertuah yang berjaya menambat hati my Imran Firdaus ini?”


 Jasmin sedang ralit meneliti rekaan terkini Qaihara Busra untuk dijual di dalam talian menerusi Jas Fashion House kelak sebelum mendapat kelulusan oleh pihaknya sendiri. Dia betul-betul ingin pastikan setiap perincian rekaan adalah yang berkualiti dan bermutu tinggi supaya para pelanggan berpuas hati dengan pembelian yang dilakukan. Elie yang menemaninya mendekatinya lalu mengingatkan akan temu janjinya dengan seorang lagi pereka di pejabat pada petang ini.

“Jas, dah dua setengah petang ni. You have another appointment with D’Xandra at three p.m. today.” Segera Jasmin melihat ke arah jam di tangannya dan cepat-cepat menyudahkan perbincangan dengan pereka fesyen bernama Qaihara itu sebelum bersedia untuk kembali ke pejabatnya.“So, I’m all satisfied with this lattest collection and soon I’ll ask Tyn to in touch with you about all the procedures and all that kind of things. I really love this blouse, will sure have it for my wardrobe collection!” Ujar Jasmin sambil mengelus blouse merah, antara rekaan milik Qaihara.

“I’ll reserve it just for you then babe. Anyway, thanks for coming and glad you suka with all my latest design. Hopefully customer pun sukalah.”
“Mesti, Qaihara Busra…the top young fashion designer in Malaysia! Okaylah I got to go now, nanti apa-apa Tyn akan contact you.”

Setelah Elie dan Jasmin keluar dari butik Qaihara Busra, ketika melangkah untuk menuju ke parkir kereta mereka ternampak Imran yang amat mesra dengan seorang wanita cantik dan akhirnya wanita itu memeluk erat Imran dan Imran langsung tidak menolak akan pelukan itu. Tak berkutik Jasmin melihat babak peluk-memeluk itu tepat di hadapan matanya. Tersedar dari leka melihat mereka berdua, pantas Jasmin menuju masuk ke dalam kereta dan tanpa sedar air matanya tumpah membasahi pipi. Elie hanya mendiamkan diri takut untuk berkata apa-apa bimbang ditambah kesakitan hati bosnya itu.

“Im, I will be missing you so much after this. Make sure she will be taking good care of you. Kalau dia tak nak you, I’m here okay?” Sempat lagi Zatasha bercanda dengan Imran namun dia cuba untuk berlagak ketawa dan gembira untuk lelaki ini.
“Yeah that I’ll make sure. You too, take care and hopefully you will find your prince charming one day and please cheer up?” Sekali lagi Zatasha tidak dapat menahan rasa sebaknya dan memeluk Imran sekuat hatinya.


            Sudah masuk sepuluh kali panggilan tidak dijawab oleh Jasmin sejak tadi. Mesej pun tidak berbalas. Hairan Imran dibuatnya. Akalnya mencuba pulak untuk menelefon pejabat wanita itu. “Elie, Jas ada kat office tak?”
“Err Encik Imran, Jas ada cuma…I’m afraid she’s busy now?” Suara Elie kedengaran teragak-agak di hujung telefon.

“Please just a minute connect me to her.” Rayu Imran. Elie pulak serba salah takut dimarahi Jasmin jika melanggar arahan bosnya itu.
“Now Elie. Just do it.” Tegas Imran. Tanpa menunggu lama, talian terus disambungkan ke talian di dalam bilik Jasmin. “Hello Jas Fashion House, Jasmin speaking.”

“Jas, where did you go? Im called banyak kali phone kenapa tak angkat?” Kedengaran nafas Imran naik turun.
“I’m busy.”
“Busy sampaikan tak boleh pick up my call just for a minute? Are you akay?”
“Betul-betul sibuk, banyak benda nak kena settle.”
“Did I do anything wrong to you? Anwer me honestly.”
“Anything wrong huh? You ask yourself what did you do yesterday?” Sinis nada Jasmin memerli Imran.

“W-What? How do I know If you didn’t tell me then?” Imran ligat memikirkan tentang apa yang telah dia lakukan pada hari semalam.
“You really don’t know or saja buat-buat bodoh tak tahu? Bepeluk sakan depan Royal Chulan semalam tu apa?”

Imran menepuk perlahan dahinya dan mundar-mandir di dalam pejabatnya. Sekarang baru dia tahu mengapa Jasmin bersikap dingin dengannya sehingga panggilannya pun langsung tidak dijawab.
“Okay, let me explain it. She was my friend okay? An old friend.”
“An old friend that can be hugged and kiss in public? Wow, good reason.” Jasmin hentam cukup-cukup.

“Jas please, percayakan Im? Can we meet during lunch hour? I’ll have you it clear about it.”
“Nak clear apa lagi, dah cukup clear dah semalam. Kalau kawan, takkan peluk cium sampai begitulah Im! “

“Jas…Jas! Dengar…” Belum habis lagi Imran menghabiskan ayat, Jasmin sudah meletakkan telefon. Imran tahu, wanita itu cemburu dan kini dia harus menjelaskan semuanya kepada Jasmin sebelum hal ini diperbesar lagi kerana dia tidak sanggup kehilangan Jasmin dalam hidupnya.


            Pernikahan antara Qistina dan Irwan Edrus telah selesai dijalankan dengan dihadiri oleh ahli keluarga terdekat. Hanya majlis serba ringkas berserta jamuan makan sempena meraikan kedua mempelai diadakan sekali gus bagi kedua-dua pihak lelaki dan perempuan di sebuah hotel. Semuanya diuruskan oleh Datuk Iedlan dan isterinya dibantu oleh Imran terutamanya sementara Irwan hanya menhadirkan diri ketika majlis akad nikah yang telah ditetapkan. Ikutkan hati ingin sahaja dia membatalkan semua ini dan melarikan diri tanpa pengetahuan sesiapa namun, semuanya telah terlambat dan kini Qistina telah sah bergelar isterinya.

“Irwan, sambutlah salam isteri tu…” Ujar Datin Maimon yang berada di sebelahnya. Semua mata tetamu kini tertumpu ke arahnya menunggu untuk sesi pembatalan air sembahyang.
Dengan rasa canggung dia menyambut salam Qistina yang lantas mencium tangannya. Ada suatu rasa yang sukar ditafsir menjalar ke seluruh badan disaat wanita itu menyalaminya.
Kemudian dia disuruh untuk mencium dahi isterinya itu oleh Datin Maimon. Sungguh apa sebenarnya perasaan yang sedang dirasai ini?

Mereka kemudian disandingkan di atas sebuah pelamin yang dihias indah oleh perancang perkahwinan yang telah diarahkan oleh Datuk Iedlan sendiri.

“Senyumlah sikit…tambah satu sudu gula….dua sudu gula…tiga sudu gula…em…pat…” Usik Imran yang berada di sebelah Jasmin masih memujuk wanita itu yang masih dingin tentang dia dan Tengku Zatashah tempoh hari. Jasmin pura-pura fokus dengan persembahan oleh sekumpulan penari yang sedang mempersembahkan tarian zapin di hadapan para tetamu yang hadir.

“Sayang…manis ada, senyum tarak…” Sambung Imran dengan lenggok Bangladesh. Jasmin tahan semaksimum mungkin untuk tidak ketawa namun kalah akhirnya. Mereka akhirnya sama-sama tergelak.

“I miss this smile..that sweetest smile that melting my heart.” Ucap Imran spontan sambil melihat ke dalam mata Jasmin. Jasmin terasa salah tingkah dan tidak tahu apa yang ingin diucapkan kepada lelaki yang segak berbaju Melayu berwarna ungu muda itu. Tak sempat untuk dia mula berbicara ketika lidahnya ingin berkata, nama Imran dipanggil untuk memberi ucapan buat kedua mempelai sebagai wakil keluarga. 

“Just a moment, be right back sayang.”

Gulp. Jasmin terkedu mendengar ayat terakhir dari lelaki tersebut. Pertama kali Imran mengucapkan kata itu terhadapnya dan hatinya berasa berbunga sejujurnya.


Setelah selesai majlis resepsi pada malam itu, Jasmin meminta izin untuk pulang dan sebelum itu sempat dia bertemu dengan ibu Imran, Datin Maimon untuk mengucapkan tahniah.

“Jasmin, maaflah aunty tak dapat duduk borak panjang dengan Jasmin. Nanti datang rumah kita borak-borak panjang bawa mama sekali okay? Cantik sungguh orangnya, manis..tengok dekat depan mata lagi cantik dari tv dan majalah. Pandai Im pilih…” Tersenyum manis Datin Maimon sambil bersalam dan memeluk Jasmin.

“Insha Allah aunty, saya balik dulu ya.” Jasmin meminta diri dengan perasaan malu menyelubungi dirinya.
“Tak lama berbesanlah kita ya Jazwin! Tak sabar saya nak terima menantu kedua. Lagi cepat lagi bagus.” Datin Maimon berbicara kepada Puan Jazwin, mama Jasmin yang turut hadir pada majlis resepsi Irwan dan Qistina.

“Eh saya lagi berbesar hati nak dapat menantu, maklumlah lima tahun lepas terima menantu lama sangat menunggu..moga-moga adalah jodoh kita berbesan tahun ni ya Datin! Umur dia orang pun bukannya makin muda, sepatutnya dah anak lima ni.” Pantas Jasmin menyinggung lembut lengan mamanya, dihimpit rasa segan yang amat. Jasmin cepat-cepat mengajak mamanya pulang dan menamatkan perbualan yang nampaknya semakin rancak jika tidak dicelah.

“Jas! Kejap.” Panggil Imran yang kalut mendapatkannya.

“Nah…” Hulur Imran dua buah beg berisi pulut kuning dan beberapa kuntum bunga telur kepadanya.

“Tadi dah dapat, cukuplah.” Senyum wanita itu.

“Ambil jelah, ada lebih…boleh bagi rumah sebelah kan mama erk sorry aunty.”

“Boleh dah start practice panggil ‘mama’ apa salahnya…” Puan Jazwin tersengih-sengih suka melihat wajah kalut tak keruan anak gadisnya itu.

“Jom mama, dah lewat ni.Kami minta diri dulu.”

Belum sempat Jasmin melangkah pergi, dipanggilnya oleh Imran lagi. “Ya apa lagi Encik Imran Firdaus?”

“I will call you tonight.” Sengaja membalas kenyataan tersebut Jasmin lantas meneruskan langkahnya untuk pergi dari dewan hotel. Imran masih tegak berdiri di situ sehingga hilang kelibat wanita itu dari pandangan matanya.


Friday, 22 September 2017

Blessings Taken For Granted?

Welcome back to school yohooo!

First thing first Im so soooo sowieee
Okay serious.
I am so terribly sorry for being passive on here for a month or maybe more than that.
You know, when semester break kicks in, there is only one in my mind that I wanna do.
E.N.J.O.Y yass guys enjoying to the fullest the off from hectic and dizziness of assignments and exams and etc and end up a pile of entries were postpone to be posted on here.

To be honest, I already wrote on my notebook for what I want to update here to be sharing with the readers whooaapp! Do there people read or visit by here?
Thank you for anyone who dropping by I really appreciate and humbly from the bottom of my heart for you to comment on the comment session below with any kind of words especially in sharing something beneficial okay can you? Right.

So far all is good and I'm kinda starting over a new leaf with my self motivation or self esteem.
I mean who else if we ourselves didn't be strong for ourselves right?
People usually are happier to see you be fall or being in calamity instead be succeed and move forward cause they can't see you are in advance than him. To be frank, people in current era are kinda scary or I'm the one who feeling this thing?

I had promised to myself last time that I'm going to share something here that might bring advice to us all. How it is so special and a blessed to have a good health. Have you ever wonder when you are feeling sick which will lead to affect any other things like important works that need to be done or for sure the mood gets affected and feeling like death is coming to us.

It was pretty frightening when suddenly I felt so hardly to breathe, gasping for air and there times where the heart went palpitation and made me feel "O God, am I going to be dead so soon? What if this is a heart attack? Noooo..."

That moment there were very quite often it happened yes during semester break. Feeling worried about myself I undoubtedly told my mom and quickly she asked her colleague to arrange for an appointment with doctor. That time she was still in Kuala Terengganu (K.T) where has been 1.5 years to served with HSNZ at the heart of K.T. before now alhamdulillah she's been transferred back to our hometown yeay!

Back to the story, so on the day once I complained about being hard to breathe and everything then mom called me and said to get ready to be on for an electronic portable device called Holter.
What the hell is this hahaha okay chill... it is actually a device that records the heart's rythm within 24 hours and guess what you cannot get shower the whole time had that device been stick to the body.

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Holter monitor device
Once done with that thing, when mom was back for weekend off duty she brought me to hospital for further check up that was blood investigation and Echocardiogram (ECG). On that day we got to know the result which all was okay but...Dr.S said to me that he suspected my red blood cell shape were not in that supposedly like normal one. They were in various shape.

He gave analogy like doughnut. Yass doughnut where there were Dunkin Donut, Big Apple Donut, normal donut and 'kuih keria' (malay traditional kuih) which might showing that I'm having certain blood disease issues here. However, this shall not affect my routine he guess inshaaAllah.. and in order to know further I had to take another blood test just for another one specific investigation. Of course my Queen would draw my blood not anybody else no no no.

As for the Holter's result (all result was fast thank god) it's been detected I've suffering from rapid or palpitation at 7.40pm. Can I say maybe it's you that made my heart been not in order can I LOL.
"Here showing that you are feeling palpitation and..."
"Aha! Yass that's it! You are so clever do you know?"

Like hello...result was in his hand god! That Dr.S was kinda shocked to my reaction that we the one who might get mild heart attack caused by me. Gulp.
But seriously, there is one fine of feeling sensibility deep here in my self "What if I will die soon in few days or few hours suddenly?"

Sighhhhh. That week was a bit stressful to me to had this scary thought until mom said to me "we had did the best to do scientifically and now to Allah we submit everything."

Yes mama, we did our best let Allah do the rest.

My point is, how easily most of us to take for granted the health that we have now?
Do we use it for good?
The eyesight, the taste bud, the sound we hear, tongue to utter words, hands and legs?

Fa bi ayyi alaa irrobbikuma tukazzibaan
(And to which of His blessing do we deny from?)

Let us reflect for a second.

Friday, 4 August 2017

Happy happy birthday always!

(22nd July 2017, Sat)
So we celebrated a day earlier than the exact date which is on the 23rd July. Fascinatingly, Mama Jaz and I we both share the same birth date. Sweet right?

Okay chill..

What? I know what’s on your mind who’s the hell is Mama Jaz coming from? Okay, she’s actually one of my mom’s upper six friends that until now they are still in touch. So, wan is Mama Jaz’s mother and she’s like my own dear grandmother. Literally, we are a family that sparks in our own version. Is it clear?

So Mama Jaz was the one who really into this celebration a day earlier cause she needs to go to KL by tomorrow to pick up one of her staff from airport. At first, she asked me and my mom about where would we go out to eat for lunch. Frankly, I have no idea guys. Nowhere!
After few suggestions here and there like Patin Tempoyak, Centrepoint and etc..
So Where?

Home. Yes babeh home is where we had our birthday celebration. At my home to be exact and tell you what it was awesome and fantabulous yet one of the modest but I can sense it was filled with feeling of grateful and thankful. With wan had her speedy recovery, and we had given longer live to breathe on this world. Thank you God.

The more the merrier was what we called when the party was also had Wafiy in the house! Yup my new pakwe (boyfriend) haha you got me kidding he’s just a ten-month-baby-boy uoll!
Also, Kak Yaya and Amer both were young parents to Wafiy, who else? There was Amar, my mom and of course the birthday girls!!!! My mom and me cooked a lot of special dishes and Mama Jaz had also brought a big bucket of KFC with Double Down burgers to the house. It was actually a double celebration which we celebrated majorly all those July Babies including Kak Yaya and Wan too! Wan's birthday is on 27th July so yeahh

Rich of delight and scrumptious food buddy! Everyone eat like a horse I guess. I’m happy to see daisy wan ate so a lot and Kak Yaya seems can’t help from stop eating Ikan Wan Tasek masak cili api (cooked with chilies and coconut milk). Baby Wafiy had also behave so good I can’t stop from bite this lil chick LOL. This lil human was just okay and adaptable with anyone who takes him to carry even he was so generous with his melting and sweetest smile on the earth that might stole each and every girls in this town! No he’s my pakwe okay? Okay.

Once this small family left, then came to the house another family from Putrajaya. Guess who?
They were our ex-neighbour, not my ex bear that in mind. Okay not funneh. So yeah there were them in the house just drop by since they moved for about 4 years ago. Sweet also right? Okay then, we were together went to their son’s babysitter who was also my acquaintance by walking distance from my place.

During the night, my mom has to catch up her bus going back to Kuala Terengganu for working and here I am being twenty-two without her by my side sobs.But but but… there’s something waiting coming on the next day! What is it? Check it out on the next entry alright?




Patin masak tempoyak the best ever in town! Had early dinner at house of Mak Cik Sakinah

Wafiy the victim of me

Ago what?


agoda is the name of the website that will give the best offer and discount for any hotel just by end of your finger!

If you love to travel and looking for hotel or appartment just name it, AGODA is the one that could give an awesome and incredible one!

Yes Agoda! That catches my heart the most so far. It was during my birthday on 23rd Jul on last week Mama Jaz and me we went up to KL. So she booked at Agoda for this very satisfied stay at a service appartment just by walking distance to lovely KLCC. Where?

MALAYSIA tanah airku absolutely!

We stayed at the Vortex Home Victoria which was a fully furnished appartment with very high security from G level I tell you. You wouldn't able to go up to the house if you don't have its special card. Die.

So sophisticated to me but could adjust to it once did the back and forth of walking round inside the building. I was dizzy just like that oh god!

Then not to mention with that lift doesn't want to go up even I had flash that so-called-special-card. Urghh!  Finally succeed to get to level 17 where we were staying phewww! Only after changed and confused with their lift!

Okay cool.

But I must say that I had fell in love. Yassss!
In love with the Home Victoria Vortex KLCC. It was simple decorated but has its own style and elegance and everything! You have to try it.
It was truly located at the heart of KL which you can see and witness the beauty of the city day and night oh myyyyyy!

"Since no one celebrates our birthday, let's just we celebrate ourselves hahaha!" Says Mama Jaz while we walking to Suria KLCC.

Cheers babeh!

Happy birthday to the both if us xoxo

Hello darling babeh

In front of Vortex Home Victoria

Evening stroll to the Suria KLCC

Birthday twins

So overwhelming by so Korean autumn eh?

Dot dot dot

Cant help stop from adore this skyline!

In laffff

One of the bedroom that is so comfort and cool 


22 & 48

Vortex that situated opposite by the Shangri La lalalala

Admire with everything in this Home Victoria!
Thanks for drop here