To love and be loved

I was thinking alone

Let the thought go wonder

How easy to give deliver to a baby/babies

But never to raise and to educate them very wel, to have proper example to dear loved ones.

Right?

If parents' responsible are just giving birth, feed them food, give clothes they going to be growing up. Easy-peasy if that is it.

But, reality is the duty comes in one whole package which the most important thing is to raise, educate, give right amount of love needed and things like that.

Must be challenging. Then have to give equal love, equal privilages if got siblings. 

What really do makes my heart feels moved is whenever seeing lovely sisters and brothers having that freaking wonderful precious moment among themselves with parents. So heaven feeling I can't put into words though.

Desperate of me like wholly desperate

P/s: Have got the free samples today. I know im an adult baby peace!

Azharina Menggegar Malam Finale GV3!

Tuah ayam nampak di kaki tuah manusia siapa yang tahu.

Hai bertuah pemilik suara serak-serak basah Azharina yang menang pertandingan Gegar Vaganza musim ketiga tahun ini.

Auranya bak meremang bulu roma bila dia hit high note like wow so amazing!

Bertuahnya wanita Sabah ini menang SERATUS RIBU, SEBIDANG TANAH LOT BANGLO, SET BARANG KEMAS TIGA PULUH RIBU RAFFLESSIA, PAKEJ PERCUTIAN KE ITALY, BAUCER BARANG LIMA RIBU GO SHOP dan trofi.

Tak ke kaya 1 malam? Tapi, all of those competitors she deserves it. By her undeniable talented in performance, the judges never did wrong evaluation to make her as the champion of the grand finale.

Tak kurang hebat hadiah untuk tempat kedua dan ketiga. Like seriously how fantabulos the prizes offered? Imagine, dapat LIMA PULUH RIBU, SEBIDANG TANAH LOT BANGLO, PAKEJ PERCUTIAN KE EUROPE, SET RAFFLESIA PULUH RIBU, BAUCER GO SHOP. Wow!

I used to liked her Elegi Sepi song and I am happy to see her winning this competition! Big congratulations to her :)

By the way, this time was first time of my life to see such freaking worthy the prizes to be given. Thus, means Gegar Vaganza programme has a huge allocation for this singing competition.

So, Azharina could sleep with all smile on her face after this night :)

Sikit-sikit Lama-lama Jadi Bukit

Bayangkan...
Satu hari simpan satu ringgit
selama sebulan bersamaan dengan tiga puluh
jadinya tiga puluh darab dengan dua belas
tiga ratus enam puluh!

Itu baru setahun
cuba kalau bertahun-tahun
disimpan diberanakkan jumlah tersebut

tak ke jadi bukit?

Lagi lama lagi tinggi menggunung bukit tu

Worth it!
Seriously.

Why don't start now? Saving for future bit by bit.
Baby step before big step.

Credit here

Red Velvet Cake by Miss Sparkler

It was a first try honestly

so give me a chance

I use to bake choc cake since it is my favorite  most of the time

cause the steps just pretty easy and I don't know but my tongue really adores it.

This time, here come the mood to give a shot of red velvet once in lifetime.

What differ from choc cake was with additional of cream cheese man!

Yummy slrrrppp ummmhh

However, to mix the ingredients by only using HANDS yes you get it right

with no mixers neither hand or stand I just made it by my hands..my hands 

*blow my nails*

So here it goes the result tadaa!!!

I know right it was not that boom boom wow fantastic baby 

but hey don't judge a cake by it's cover !

*smirk*
Actually I don't want to make the top of the cake to look so empty thus I used those remaining pieces and now I realize that people top on it with grated choc bar!
*what a dang* but never mind, at least my talent for art unleashed bit by bit ?

For recipe, I preferably not advice to give cause not sure if the recipe won't turn out well. But if you just wanna try for fun here are they.

Red velvet cake

2 cup of all purposed flour

2 large table spoon of cocoa powder

1 small table spoon of essence vanilla

1 cup of castor sugar 

1 small table spoon of salt

1 small table spoon of soda bicarbonate

1 small table spoon of baking powder

1 egg

1 cup of milk + 2 large table spoon of white vinegar = buttermilk

1 cup of nescafe without sugar

1 small table spoon of red colouring

1/2 of hot water

Cream Cheese frosting

1 packet of 250g Tartura cream cheese

50g of 250g Buttercup

2 large table spoon of white vinegar

1/2 of lemon zest or lime

1 small table spoon of essence vanilla

1 cup of castor sugar/ icing sugar

Steps

Mix all the dry ingredients happily hahaha

If you want to sieve those things than it's better to prevent from being lump? 

Okay just whatever you prefer guys.

Next,mix up all that wet ingredients together except for a cup of milk, vinegar to become buttermilk and a cup of nescafe. Left about 5 minutes of buttermilk to react together to build chemistry.

Just add them together with open heart tell you all. Just shoot it I mean no worry to fail. It's okay, come on! Lastly, add all dry and wet things inside one bowl and stir, mix them well by using your hands or mixer alternately. If wanna have a fit and toned muscle you might choose to use hands. *wink*

Then, put the cake in oven for 160 degree celcius for 40 minutes depending on your oven. Otherwise, could you use by steam on stove. 

For cream cheese one, just add those on the list up there and stir so that they mix nicely before keep in fridge for about 5-10 minutes to let it cool so that easy for us to do frosting later. After done frosting let the cake be kept in fridge for a while before have it into your mouth.

To top it off, don't you dare to 'kutuk' my cake okay! Or else you will be cursed be like ugly frog wahahaha! So just shhhhhhhesss. 

November Give Away!!!

Just by clicking on this below link and fill up details like name, address etc you could have those free sample give away as simple as that. Come on, check it out!

Mamee Chef One Thousand Samples

Haba Lado 9ml Hydrating Lotion

Libresse Order Sample

Wyeth Nutrition

Count on Dove

Wildan Susu Kambing

Nestle Food Free Sample

Drypers Pampers to wee wee LOL

Aqua skin care Canada
Selsun Blue Dandruff Hair

So happy redeeming free sample which will be sent to your doorstep!

Love,

xoxo

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) ?

Is a type of personality disorder. Personality disorders are a type of mental health problem which your thoughts, beliefs and behaviours cause to longstand problem in life. BPD is also called as emotionally unstable personality disorder (EUPD).

Most people who have BPD suffer from:

-Problem with regulating emotion and thoughts
-Impulsive and reckless behaviour
-Unstable relationship with other people

Signs & Symptoms

• Extreme reactions like panic, depression, rage, or frantic actions to abandonment, whether real or perceived
• A pattern of intense and stormy relationships with family, friends, and loved ones, often veering from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation)
• Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self, which can result in sudden changes in feelings, opinions, values, or plans and goals for the future (such as school or career choices)
• Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, and binge eating
• Recurring suicidal behaviors or threats or self-harming behavior, such as cutting
• Intense and highly changeable moods, with each episode lasting from a few hours to a few days
• Chronic feelings of emptiness and/or boredom
• Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling angerHaving stress-related paranoid thoughts or severe dissociative symptoms, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside the body, or losing touch with reality.

So, these above are just guidelines to show different light that perhaps somebody around you misbehave and you have no idea about it. Only health professional like psychiatrists could asses whether you are suffering this kind of personality disorder. Hope this help and to those who dealing with loved ones, be patient.

Sources

1.http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml

2.http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/borderline-personality-disorder-bpd/about-bpd/?o=8668#.V74yodJ97IW

Mesej Penuh Makna

Niat nak tulis macam-macam.

Maaf kepada semua entri ini mungkin tiada bermanfaat untuk dibaca.

Hanya satu wadah untuk jemari menari di ruangan maya.

Serius macam-macam. Lepas tulis padam. Dah tiga puluh minit tulis padam.

Jadi let's do this, supaya untuk menjadi juga satu entri biarkan saja apa jari ingin menaip di keyboard ini sehingga mahu berhenti. 

tulis saja kecuali salah eja. 

Kecamuk haru biru  nanti tulis di sini ish terbuka sangat

baik ambil buku luah semua dalam itu

haih tuhan. selain kau yang maha mengetahu segala rasa di hati segala takdir hidup setiap hambaMu 

apakah aku saja yang merasakannya dari diri atau dari luar diri jiwa muda jiwa memberontak jiwa haus dengan kebenaran terkadang mudah salahkan tuhan dan akhirnya kembali pada tuhan jua.

okay fokus nak cerita pasal tulisan mini novel The Healing Love adalah ilham di kotak fikiran tentang dari tuhan untuk melampiaskan rasa terpendam, rasa rindu, rasa bersatu rasa bertuhan. Ditulis atau dicoret tanpa dengan penuh harapan yang tersimpan rapi di dalam hati moga suatu ketika satu saat di atas bumi di alam dunia masih ada harapan untuk manusia sedar  hubungan sesama manusia diperbaiki.

Hidup ini  Pentas dunia yang cuba difahami.

Bila mana manusia bertanya kenapa mengapa bagaimana?

Nampak betapa celaru apa di fikiran ini namun tetap mahu menulis? Susunan berterabur bila minda tak berada di centre of allignment aduhai.

Kasih disatukan. Persengketaan dihapuskan.Berlandaskan cinta kepada Allah.

itu moto atau visi mini novel hasil tulisan aku yang setiap baris kata mengalir spontan seiring dengan gambaran di minda yang menjadi penggerak sehingga part 52 ditulis.

Paling manis, ada yang sudi membaca sama ada secara silent reader tak kurang juga meninggalkan komen.

"Ah aku sekadar bermimpi dan mengimpikan dan berharap! Tapi tak mustahil kan? Tuhan pernah pesan kun fayakun, jadi maka jadilah! Maknanya, tiada apa yang mustahil melainkan dengan izin Dia. "

Lihat sekarang contoh yang realiti. Semua di situ. Atau barangkali tuhan punya rencana lagi lain

Atau aku sekadar menaruh harapan yang tak akan kesampaian akan visi seperti diatas.


Ya Allah.

Segala yang baik hanya dari Engkau, segala yang buruk dari diri kami sendiri.