Red Velvet Cake by Miss Sparkler

It was a first try honestly

so give me a chance

I use to bake choc cake since it is my favorite  most of the time

cause the steps just pretty easy and I don't know but my tongue really adores it.

This time, here come the mood to give a shot of red velvet once in lifetime.

What differ from choc cake was with additional of cream cheese man!

Yummy slrrrppp ummmhh

However, to mix the ingredients by only using HANDS yes you get it right

with no mixers neither hand or stand I just made it by my hands..my hands 

*blow my nails*

So here it goes the result tadaa!!!

I know right it was not that boom boom wow fantastic baby 

but hey don't judge a cake by it's cover !

*smirk*
Actually I don't want to make the top of the cake to look so empty thus I used those remaining pieces and now I realize that people top on it with grated choc bar!
*what a dang* but never mind, at least my talent for art unleashed bit by bit ?

For recipe, I preferably not advice to give cause not sure if the recipe won't turn out well. But if you just wanna try for fun here are they.

Red velvet cake

2 cup of all purposed flour

2 large table spoon of cocoa powder

1 small table spoon of essence vanilla

1 cup of castor sugar 

1 small table spoon of salt

1 small table spoon of soda bicarbonate

1 small table spoon of baking powder

1 egg

1 cup of milk + 2 large table spoon of white vinegar = buttermilk

1 cup of nescafe without sugar

1 small table spoon of red colouring

1/2 of hot water

Cream Cheese frosting

1 packet of 250g Tartura cream cheese

50g of 250g Buttercup

2 large table spoon of white vinegar

1/2 of lemon zest or lime

1 small table spoon of essence vanilla

1 cup of castor sugar/ icing sugar

Steps

Mix all the dry ingredients happily hahaha

If you want to sieve those things than it's better to prevent from being lump? 

Okay just whatever you prefer guys.

Next,mix up all that wet ingredients together except for a cup of milk, vinegar to become buttermilk and a cup of nescafe. Left about 5 minutes of buttermilk to react together to build chemistry.

Just add them together with open heart tell you all. Just shoot it I mean no worry to fail. It's okay, come on! Lastly, add all dry and wet things inside one bowl and stir, mix them well by using your hands or mixer alternately. If wanna have a fit and toned muscle you might choose to use hands. *wink*

Then, put the cake in oven for 160 degree celcius for 40 minutes depending on your oven. Otherwise, could you use by steam on stove. 

For cream cheese one, just add those on the list up there and stir so that they mix nicely before keep in fridge for about 5-10 minutes to let it cool so that easy for us to do frosting later. After done frosting let the cake be kept in fridge for a while before have it into your mouth.

To top it off, don't you dare to 'kutuk' my cake okay! Or else you will be cursed be like ugly frog wahahaha! So just shhhhhhhesss. 

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Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) ?

Is a type of personality disorder. Personality disorders are a type of mental health problem which your thoughts, beliefs and behaviours cause to longstand problem in life. BPD is also called as emotionally unstable personality disorder (EUPD).

Most people who have BPD suffer from:

-Problem with regulating emotion and thoughts
-Impulsive and reckless behaviour
-Unstable relationship with other people

Signs & Symptoms

• Extreme reactions like panic, depression, rage, or frantic actions to abandonment, whether real or perceived
• A pattern of intense and stormy relationships with family, friends, and loved ones, often veering from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation)
• Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self, which can result in sudden changes in feelings, opinions, values, or plans and goals for the future (such as school or career choices)
• Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, and binge eating
• Recurring suicidal behaviors or threats or self-harming behavior, such as cutting
• Intense and highly changeable moods, with each episode lasting from a few hours to a few days
• Chronic feelings of emptiness and/or boredom
• Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling angerHaving stress-related paranoid thoughts or severe dissociative symptoms, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside the body, or losing touch with reality.

So, these above are just guidelines to show different light that perhaps somebody around you misbehave and you have no idea about it. Only health professional like psychiatrists could asses whether you are suffering this kind of personality disorder. Hope this help and to those who dealing with loved ones, be patient.

Sources

1.http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml

2.http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/borderline-personality-disorder-bpd/about-bpd/?o=8668#.V74yodJ97IW

Mesej Penuh Makna

Niat nak tulis macam-macam.

Maaf kepada semua entri ini mungkin tiada bermanfaat untuk dibaca.

Hanya satu wadah untuk jemari menari di ruangan maya.

Serius macam-macam. Lepas tulis padam. Dah tiga puluh minit tulis padam.

Jadi let's do this, supaya untuk menjadi juga satu entri biarkan saja apa jari ingin menaip di keyboard ini sehingga mahu berhenti. 

tulis saja kecuali salah eja. 

Kecamuk haru biru  nanti tulis di sini ish terbuka sangat

baik ambil buku luah semua dalam itu

haih tuhan. selain kau yang maha mengetahu segala rasa di hati segala takdir hidup setiap hambaMu 

apakah aku saja yang merasakannya dari diri atau dari luar diri jiwa muda jiwa memberontak jiwa haus dengan kebenaran terkadang mudah salahkan tuhan dan akhirnya kembali pada tuhan jua.

okay fokus nak cerita pasal tulisan mini novel The Healing Love adalah ilham di kotak fikiran tentang dari tuhan untuk melampiaskan rasa terpendam, rasa rindu, rasa bersatu rasa bertuhan. Ditulis atau dicoret tanpa dengan penuh harapan yang tersimpan rapi di dalam hati moga suatu ketika satu saat di atas bumi di alam dunia masih ada harapan untuk manusia sedar  hubungan sesama manusia diperbaiki.

Hidup ini  Pentas dunia yang cuba difahami.

Bila mana manusia bertanya kenapa mengapa bagaimana?

Nampak betapa celaru apa di fikiran ini namun tetap mahu menulis? Susunan berterabur bila minda tak berada di centre of allignment aduhai.

Kasih disatukan. Persengketaan dihapuskan.Berlandaskan cinta kepada Allah.

itu moto atau visi mini novel hasil tulisan aku yang setiap baris kata mengalir spontan seiring dengan gambaran di minda yang menjadi penggerak sehingga part 52 ditulis.

Paling manis, ada yang sudi membaca sama ada secara silent reader tak kurang juga meninggalkan komen.

"Ah aku sekadar bermimpi dan mengimpikan dan berharap! Tapi tak mustahil kan? Tuhan pernah pesan kun fayakun, jadi maka jadilah! Maknanya, tiada apa yang mustahil melainkan dengan izin Dia. "

Lihat sekarang contoh yang realiti. Semua di situ. Atau barangkali tuhan punya rencana lagi lain

Atau aku sekadar menaruh harapan yang tak akan kesampaian akan visi seperti diatas.


Ya Allah.

Segala yang baik hanya dari Engkau, segala yang buruk dari diri kami sendiri.

Beautiful reminder

Having read this hadith is enough to make myself freaking trembling.

I really wish

in silent and with great hope

that my prayer will be granted

even it would risk my life.

This hadith remind us to keep maintaining and sustaining the relationship among family members.

Having said about this is enough made me remind of one particular incident since I was pretty young.

The most I HATE

why?

cause it caused me to suffer deep down till now.

Trying hard to avoid to hate the person

instead hating the THINGS.

credit to here

Shed of tears

credit to here

Somehow Let it always be Sparkling motivates me to always be happy
keep revive to hang in there
while it last
though behind of it, poured with rain and thunder
shaking roughly the boat

Thought it could be bear and handled 

but unexpectedly is not.

O dear self.

It was terribly suck

yet strikes me again

the most terrifying thing- ruin my mental state

the rebel me

the sorrow

the emptiness 

the longing

such everything was not falling into its place

such that 5-year-old me stuck in the present body

why me?

It's Now or Never

Translated with verification certs like CRAZY checked.
International passport photo with white background checked.
Passport checked.
Interview succeeded.

NOT going, that's it - the end.

My mom's journey in her career life peeps.

In what field? Oh in nursing. (Curiosity always hit homo sapien I knew.)

T_T

So what the hell is she's not going for another place out of her comfort zone? She was really stressful until can't bear enough to wait over here whilst there were folks that easily being offered to that specific post.
Meanwhile, for more than two years she had done with her degree and spent thousands (in cash) to pay the fees. Seems like all those efforts are not worth it gone just like that.

Useless.

Truly double standard I dare to say.

Here, no more 'come clean' unless you got 'cable' behind the organization- insider.

Yeah when no other things except money and high expectation which is towards seeking appreciation for hard work and privileges is not only le Queen looking for but her colleagues as well. No wonder loads of them went off abroad though leaving the kids and husband with maid.

*HUH*

Think twice, think thrice - NOT going is the best answer.

Money we can find but there's beyond than that that are way more important I supposed.

How come my mommy off to S*!G**RE without me how dare she is to do so yet of course she will must have a visit to the USS! No this must be wrong just if and only I am not staying along with her.

So forget about being living in abroad (Seberang nuh je pun)
Continue life as usual - go working to the hospital as a nurse with the most presentable smiley on face added with positive sense to be spread to patients who seeking cure and therapy not to mention those HO and MO.

*smirk*

Cut it short, out of sudden my Queen has been offered for promotion but............
has to be transferred to out of the state HAHAHAHA! (I actually quite sobs you guys.)
Feel me- I have grown up with the hospital my mom worked for years and tadaaa!

From Pahang flying to Terengganu man. Why not Langkawi or exactly Perlis? Or Kedah or Penang? Why must Terengganu? If just the up most officer was just my close great grandpa- know I how to lobby him then.

Embrace- that's what should we do among above after all. It's never easy to get such this precious chance. Might this is a stepping stone for her to go higher higher and higher and she's done if she dares to forget me- the one that gone wild and insane in contacting my FB-lawyer-friends that I never met in real!
And here you go for this I met them in real at last.

So tomorrow is her new chapter in life as a leader to her own peeps.
I pray and wish that more good things to happened despite all before that my darling Queen has been trough thick and thin. Last week was the week she been pampered they made more than two farewell parties okay!
Not to mention the Docs that fetched her from home to take for dinner consequently!

How amazing her charms that almost everyone treats her with foods~~~~~ I want to be there tooooo!

Emo ops.

You know all this happened just in a blink of an eye!

I am shocked. Despair. Happy. Cheer. Mixed.

All in all, saying goodbye is never the ending if the moment arrive, then we will meet again right?

Soaring upward mommy!!!!

lopas ni belanja pizza kfc nandos Kenny Rogers and my desire novelsssssss!

puhlease. To those who are still waiting for something you are hoping for, trust me the time will come eventually late or fast it would be- just have faith :)

Never lose hope okay?

In short, Big Congratulations from your BIG Die hard FAN,

Anakanda (daughter)

after this aiming for that bold color uniform mom :)

the 'stairs'...urm uneven. The most hottest doc in runway model haks

Some of them, part of the team.

New model...perhaps? In charge of ornaments etc

P/S: Thanks to all on behalf of my beloved Queen. Thanks to Kak Suza for sending photos to me to enhance my envy You guys cool and amazing and uh ya surprising :)

Would really appreciate it and see ya again when I see ya sobs :(

Best of luck in running the clinic in future with fantastic baybeh.