Beautiful reminder

Having read this hadith is enough to make myself freaking trembling.

I really wish

in silent and with great hope

that my prayer will be granted

even it would risk my life.

This hadith remind us to keep maintaining and sustaining the relationship among family members.

Having said about this is enough made me remind of one particular incident since I was pretty young.

The most I HATE

why?

cause it caused me to suffer deep down till now.

Trying hard to avoid to hate the person

instead hating the THINGS.

credit to here

Shed of tears

credit to here

Somehow Let it always be Sparkling motivates me to always be happy
keep revive to hang in there
while it last
though behind of it, poured with rain and thunder
shaking roughly the boat

Thought it could be bear and handled 

but unexpectedly is not.

O dear self.

It was terribly suck

yet strikes me again

the most terrifying thing- ruin my mental state

the rebel me

the sorrow

the emptiness 

the longing

such everything was not falling into its place

such that 5-year-old me stuck in the present body

why me?

It's Now or Never

Translated with verification certs like CRAZY checked.
International passport photo with white background checked.
Passport checked.
Interview succeeded.

NOT going, that's it - the end.

My mom's journey in her career life peeps.

In what field? Oh in nursing. (Curiosity always hit homo sapien I knew.)

T_T

So what the hell is she's not going for another place out of her comfort zone? She was really stressful until can't bear enough to wait over here whilst there were folks that easily being offered to that specific post.
Meanwhile, for more than two years she had done with her degree and spent thousands (in cash) to pay the fees. Seems like all those efforts are not worth it gone just like that.

Useless.

Truly double standard I dare to say.

Here, no more 'come clean' unless you got 'cable' behind the organization- insider.

Yeah when no other things except money and high expectation which is towards seeking appreciation for hard work and privileges is not only le Queen looking for but her colleagues as well. No wonder loads of them went off abroad though leaving the kids and husband with maid.

*HUH*

Think twice, think thrice - NOT going is the best answer.

Money we can find but there's beyond than that that are way more important I supposed.

How come my mommy off to S*!G**RE without me how dare she is to do so yet of course she will must have a visit to the USS! No this must be wrong just if and only I am not staying along with her.

So forget about being living in abroad (Seberang nuh je pun)
Continue life as usual - go working to the hospital as a nurse with the most presentable smiley on face added with positive sense to be spread to patients who seeking cure and therapy not to mention those HO and MO.

*smirk*

Cut it short, out of sudden my Queen has been offered for promotion but............
has to be transferred to out of the state HAHAHAHA! (I actually quite sobs you guys.)
Feel me- I have grown up with the hospital my mom worked for years and tadaaa!

From Pahang flying to Terengganu man. Why not Langkawi or exactly Perlis? Or Kedah or Penang? Why must Terengganu? If just the up most officer was just my close great grandpa- know I how to lobby him then.

Embrace- that's what should we do among above after all. It's never easy to get such this precious chance. Might this is a stepping stone for her to go higher higher and higher and she's done if she dares to forget me- the one that gone wild and insane in contacting my FB-lawyer-friends that I never met in real!
And here you go for this I met them in real at last.

So tomorrow is her new chapter in life as a leader to her own peeps.
I pray and wish that more good things to happened despite all before that my darling Queen has been trough thick and thin. Last week was the week she been pampered they made more than two farewell parties okay!
Not to mention the Docs that fetched her from home to take for dinner consequently!

How amazing her charms that almost everyone treats her with foods~~~~~ I want to be there tooooo!

Emo ops.

You know all this happened just in a blink of an eye!

I am shocked. Despair. Happy. Cheer. Mixed.

All in all, saying goodbye is never the ending if the moment arrive, then we will meet again right?

Soaring upward mommy!!!!

lopas ni belanja pizza kfc nandos Kenny Rogers and my desire novelsssssss!

puhlease. To those who are still waiting for something you are hoping for, trust me the time will come eventually late or fast it would be- just have faith :)

Never lose hope okay?

In short, Big Congratulations from your BIG Die hard FAN,

Anakanda (daughter)

after this aiming for that bold color uniform mom :)

the 'stairs'...urm uneven. The most hottest doc in runway model haks

Some of them, part of the team.

New model...perhaps? In charge of ornaments etc

P/S: Thanks to all on behalf of my beloved Queen. Thanks to Kak Suza for sending photos to me to enhance my envy You guys cool and amazing and uh ya surprising :)

Would really appreciate it and see ya again when I see ya sobs :(

Best of luck in running the clinic in future with fantastic baybeh.

Ekkkjeng - what's that?

Mee Hong says it meaning in real E.X.A.M

*she'll kill me and blabbering before stab me by using her saliva*

"Do the best and let Allah do the rest."

I whispered to my dear self repeatedly.
Just everyday it took courage and perseverance
to hold on and hang in there
while whole body shivered and wondered - WHAT'S gonna happened if this or that occured?
I submit all to The Most Glorious and The Most Merciful
Him.

The freaking last two weeks were so stressful, dead, feeling like gasping man.
It was like
"OMG what was I've learnt all this while for this semester?!"

Heartbeat getting fast like crazy
like bursting BUFFF!
But hey what the hell if I be like that instead of being chill and cool like
"Hey, it's just exam not you going to have a major operation between life and death so nothing big deal right? Relax. Breathe."

Err actually it do between life and death literally right? Look, a student needs to success in his study so that he could secure his desire job and then buy Nissan Skyline GTR  and own a luxury bungalow with perfect fully furnished, huge swimming pool, high-end home theater  -havoc right bahahaha 

Simple. Start from NOW.

Ok back to the story, where were we? LOL.
Nine subjects minus co-curriculum so now there's eight subjects to be revised and go through from A to Z
Yes I repeat from A to Z starting with introduction of theory of communication, introduction of principle communication networking, translate that mixing bilingual of notes for writing for new media blablablablabla

*sigh and fainted*

Not to mention with final editing of report and editing of assignments. I turned zombie, not sleep for the whole day from early night till dawn settling editing solely. Lucky to have my b.a.b.i LOL

Bagiku Awak Begitu Istimewa don't bash me guys.

*creepy I tell chuuuu*

but do I have choices? BIG NO. That's it. There were so much on this thought at the moment.

Frightened. Yeah not me the only one to felt it but them the others that took RA72 program.

Two weeks was so long to finish those crazy three hours for every each examination papers exclude one paper - Public Speaking which was one and half hour duration. That one was once had battle with 80% coursework.

"Kau Rasa?" You think? 

gagagagagagagappppp baq hang 

All in all believe it or not - I did it! Yeah I did it man! OMG all praises to Him, alhamdulillah.
Though lots of things happened a year back than (I even DID NOT want it to happened) yet to see in different point of view or perspective, I survived :)

This won't happened with the blessing and wills of Him truly speaking. And now up to next level and have to see it will never easy to achieve something big unless with great effort and patient and more. The most important part is to maintain, being the top and creme de la creme. 

"Gulp"

Ok chill.

oh jassssduuuwiittt! -Nike's wise word :)

#justdoit

Gang public speaking of coz with Mee Hong, Shrul the keyy-L boy, Aiman the local of Perth..lisian, Kama hispter, Leyla oh Leyla, Mai the mak-mak kinda one and  Mek  *wink*

Future of Prof Farid explaining theory thingy (you owe me loads of choc man)

the boys with most famous and hot prof madya aziz satar 

over counting wives bahahahaha *silau*

Us housemates exclude that attention seeker dudes at the back. 

So dramatism 

BM exam day at kubeng gajoh 

ok guys enough with shot now let's step into that freaking hall face with writing for new media



Guys let's hentam kromo ekjeng jap lagi ye set!



Wrong face expression during examination's day



my b.a.b.i so lovely in baju kurung haks

Appreciate Love

Love manifests itself in different way

though it's all up to us to interpret - L.O.V.E



In my own definition of 'Love' means -pure, beautiful and miracle (just popping out of my mind the moment I am writing this)



Love is subjective as different people might have their own perspective or opinion about love.

There would be a girl that mad in love with 'sugar daddy' ops! (for example)

Or perhaps a girl having affair with a married man and she doesn't care at all though would be the second wife

as long as the man would be by her side 24/7 not to mention had well prepared with a luxury fully furnished condominium and a brand new Nissan Skyline r34 for her.



*phewww*



but for the sake of love - anything for you bayyybeee



so love is in the air going high high and high!



Otherwise there's no the saying of "LOVE IS BLIND" or the lovers are the blind actually?



Point is, love could be in any form and as mentioned before, love manifests itself in different way so what I can say here, appreciate it as you won't never know when you are out of time. We're just borrowed and at the end of time everything will gone. That's for sure peeps.



So cherish the moment right now and appreciate the love by keep spreading the love by spending the time with loved ones this weekend for instance.



Got it?



Mucho love mmmwaahh!

That Magic Word

A cute teenage girl came in her cuter's lecturer room.

No, not for the discussion thingy either about the all dissatisfaction that be kept in the girl's mind just to waiting the right moment to speak out loud to that cuter lecturer than the girl.

pehe dok ni?

Make it short, the girl entered the room to buy the brand new book of Interpersonal Communication by who?

that writer of course!

So, once the girl settled with the purchasing and ready to step outta the room the cuter lecturer than her said out of the blue

"Congrats."

Luckily, the girl fast loading to catch up what was the subject refer to of the saying of that 'congrats'.
She with full of smile on her face with a little pimple due to missing her Queen of da Zadora El Merinque (where is that country actually?)mommy damn so badly cause you know it is still the first week that the girl just started class for semester tu two.

So itu perkara norrrrmal kan kan? Kasi chance ah ye!

Ok we continue the story back again..

Where were we just now? Oh this is because of you mom.

So the girl smiled and felt so high.

Maigad is that can?

Okay we try once again.

So the girl smiled and replied gratefully with the magic word before she leaving the room with

Thank you :)

p/s: you know who is that cute girl right? But that cuter lecturer than the girl? Oh better the girl only knows cause she is super cute than you I bet.

Night world and have a nice day ahead

mucho love

colorful of life as these beautiful of flower make my heart always thinking of you my biyuuutipul mommy that crazy with bunga kembang pukul sploh :)

My Dear Salman Faris (Cutie Next Door)

Maka bermulalah pengembaraan semester dua!

Straight to the point - first class was Innovation and Creative Skills

Guess siapakah gerangan yang mengajar tadi?

My ex bhahaha!

Ex-rps (rakan pembimbing siswa) named En.Maskor

All in all I just can't say as it was only the very beginning and will update and pour out all what I go through coming soon- so beware

*wink*

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Okay frankly, I just need sometimes to adjust well I mean everything for my good sake too pheww...
Yeah adjusting which is kinda hard to make it but have to. Imagine that I had for more than a month of semester break so am writing this in post-semester-break-mood :(

Mama..I miss you damn so much
missing to be your private driver - drive you every morning to the work
cooking whatever my fav dishes - spaghetti, macaroni, choc cake, nasi cicoh budu with ikang singgang  uhhhh scrumptious bayybehh

**srrrp**


Muhammad Salman Al-Farisi - guy next my door that never fails to melt my heart
his cheeky voice, sulking like silly lady maigad, longing for the calling every time he out his house

"aunty...?ah kak...? ah kak..."

Oh man how can't I refuse to attend to this sweetheart? He's such a cutie pie that shine my day though

Hard to move on seriously even he's just only the kid of next door sobs :(

It's the bonding and LOVE that matter uh plisss don't grow up too fast my darling.

Ah kak cayangggg Salman! and of course aunty Queen your always best friend.

*sigh*

p/s: had phoned and talk to him just evening and to my concern that he has fever though missing so dearly of me haks haks. Well his teeth is coming out but I bet deep in his heart that he's missing me and da bibik right Salman? You just don't know how to put into words right baby? My mom said that and yeah it make sense.

I just love this cutie so much lillahi taala. May he be a good son to his parents and always be a sweetheart.
Exclude being a hot and player that one I would teach my way if it happened.

Horse riding with Ah Kak :)

Muahhh ciket kat reader yang sudi terjah ke sini Salman

Ah Kak Su aka bibik nak igit eeee larikkkk! Gila bapak bingit telinga bila budak ni jerit doyyyyy

Nak ball? Saiyyang dulu! And he without doubt did it  awww 

Awek wekwekwekwek *blerghhh* 

Percayalah I lafff you more than Ah Kak kalau awak bawa saya round naik basikal ni -Salman 

Last day of our play time together at late evening :(

uai aju2 ampai okok sena apa alam aju sekuntum unga ina (Salman's song get it understood by yourself kay.)

thanks for reading everybody! Muuuuuwaahh from Ah Kak Salman  <3