Hurtful Promise.

“ Hey, I promise no one is going to hurt you. Promise.”

I reply silent.The gaze was at me waiting for any feedback from my side. 

Empty inside, lost. Cause the one who utter that promise, is the one who hurt me the most.

Seriously it’s hurt.Though was about small tiniest matter

Yet the sensitive side of me was so overly sensitive to be true today.

Shame on me.

No. Shame on my heart.

That is so fragile.

Speechless Whisper to Him

O Allah
I really ask for you favor
let me hang in there
protect me from any people that broke my heart
cause deep in here it felt so hurt that make me speechless

O Allah
The All Hearing most of the time
hang me in there
to get through all this messiness
and get back on right track
when I'm in lost
for I have a lot to settle here in this world

Gnite

Love,
Moon

Seal with Love But..

Be careful with it

Cause it is fragile thus please handle with care

For I am too, a human with that feelings

In the midst of feeling over the moon

Deep inside my heart is in the shed of tears

Silently unexpressed

Let only God soothes this wounded heart

Though gradually but His cure

is the best

Allah ya Wadud

The All Loving <3

Life's too short, cherish while it last. ENJOY!

Mesej Penuh Makna

Niat nak tulis macam-macam.

Maaf kepada semua entri ini mungkin tiada bermanfaat untuk dibaca.

Hanya satu wadah untuk jemari menari di ruangan maya.

Serius macam-macam. Lepas tulis padam. Dah tiga puluh minit tulis padam.

Jadi let's do this, supaya untuk menjadi juga satu entri biarkan saja apa jari ingin menaip di keyboard ini sehingga mahu berhenti. 

tulis saja kecuali salah eja. 

Kecamuk haru biru  nanti tulis di sini ish terbuka sangat

baik ambil buku luah semua dalam itu

haih tuhan. selain kau yang maha mengetahu segala rasa di hati segala takdir hidup setiap hambaMu 

apakah aku saja yang merasakannya dari diri atau dari luar diri jiwa muda jiwa memberontak jiwa haus dengan kebenaran terkadang mudah salahkan tuhan dan akhirnya kembali pada tuhan jua.

okay fokus nak cerita pasal tulisan mini novel The Healing Love adalah ilham di kotak fikiran tentang dari tuhan untuk melampiaskan rasa terpendam, rasa rindu, rasa bersatu rasa bertuhan. Ditulis atau dicoret tanpa dengan penuh harapan yang tersimpan rapi di dalam hati moga suatu ketika satu saat di atas bumi di alam dunia masih ada harapan untuk manusia sedar  hubungan sesama manusia diperbaiki.

Hidup ini  Pentas dunia yang cuba difahami.

Bila mana manusia bertanya kenapa mengapa bagaimana?

Nampak betapa celaru apa di fikiran ini namun tetap mahu menulis? Susunan berterabur bila minda tak berada di centre of allignment aduhai.

Kasih disatukan. Persengketaan dihapuskan.Berlandaskan cinta kepada Allah.

itu moto atau visi mini novel hasil tulisan aku yang setiap baris kata mengalir spontan seiring dengan gambaran di minda yang menjadi penggerak sehingga part 52 ditulis.

Paling manis, ada yang sudi membaca sama ada secara silent reader tak kurang juga meninggalkan komen.

"Ah aku sekadar bermimpi dan mengimpikan dan berharap! Tapi tak mustahil kan? Tuhan pernah pesan kun fayakun, jadi maka jadilah! Maknanya, tiada apa yang mustahil melainkan dengan izin Dia. "

Lihat sekarang contoh yang realiti. Semua di situ. Atau barangkali tuhan punya rencana lagi lain

Atau aku sekadar menaruh harapan yang tak akan kesampaian akan visi seperti diatas.


Ya Allah.

Segala yang baik hanya dari Engkau, segala yang buruk dari diri kami sendiri.

Beautiful reminder

Having read this hadith is enough to make myself freaking trembling.

I really wish

in silent and with great hope

that my prayer will be granted

even it would risk my life.

This hadith remind us to keep maintaining and sustaining the relationship among family members.

Having said about this is enough made me remind of one particular incident since I was pretty young.

The most I HATE

why?

cause it caused me to suffer deep down till now.

Trying hard to avoid to hate the person

instead hating the THINGS.

credit to here

Shed of tears

credit to here

Somehow Let it always be Sparkling motivates me to always be happy
keep revive to hang in there
while it last
though behind of it, poured with rain and thunder
shaking roughly the boat

Thought it could be bear and handled 

but unexpectedly is not.

O dear self.

It was terribly suck

yet strikes me again

the most terrifying thing- ruin my mental state

the rebel me

the sorrow

the emptiness 

the longing

such everything was not falling into its place

such that 5-year-old me stuck in the present body

why me?

Ekkkjeng - what's that?

Mee Hong says it meaning in real E.X.A.M

*she'll kill me and blabbering before stab me by using her saliva*

"Do the best and let Allah do the rest."

I whispered to my dear self repeatedly.
Just everyday it took courage and perseverance
to hold on and hang in there
while whole body shivered and wondered - WHAT'S gonna happened if this or that occured?
I submit all to The Most Glorious and The Most Merciful
Him.

The freaking last two weeks were so stressful, dead, feeling like gasping man.
It was like
"OMG what was I've learnt all this while for this semester?!"

Heartbeat getting fast like crazy
like bursting BUFFF!
But hey what the hell if I be like that instead of being chill and cool like
"Hey, it's just exam not you going to have a major operation between life and death so nothing big deal right? Relax. Breathe."

Err actually it do between life and death literally right? Look, a student needs to success in his study so that he could secure his desire job and then buy Nissan Skyline GTR  and own a luxury bungalow with perfect fully furnished, huge swimming pool, high-end home theater  -havoc right bahahaha 

Simple. Start from NOW.

Ok back to the story, where were we? LOL.
Nine subjects minus co-curriculum so now there's eight subjects to be revised and go through from A to Z
Yes I repeat from A to Z starting with introduction of theory of communication, introduction of principle communication networking, translate that mixing bilingual of notes for writing for new media blablablablabla

*sigh and fainted*

Not to mention with final editing of report and editing of assignments. I turned zombie, not sleep for the whole day from early night till dawn settling editing solely. Lucky to have my b.a.b.i LOL

Bagiku Awak Begitu Istimewa don't bash me guys.

*creepy I tell chuuuu*

but do I have choices? BIG NO. That's it. There were so much on this thought at the moment.

Frightened. Yeah not me the only one to felt it but them the others that took RA72 program.

Two weeks was so long to finish those crazy three hours for every each examination papers exclude one paper - Public Speaking which was one and half hour duration. That one was once had battle with 80% coursework.

"Kau Rasa?" You think? 

gagagagagagagappppp baq hang 

All in all believe it or not - I did it! Yeah I did it man! OMG all praises to Him, alhamdulillah.
Though lots of things happened a year back than (I even DID NOT want it to happened) yet to see in different point of view or perspective, I survived :)

This won't happened with the blessing and wills of Him truly speaking. And now up to next level and have to see it will never easy to achieve something big unless with great effort and patient and more. The most important part is to maintain, being the top and creme de la creme. 

"Gulp"

Ok chill.

oh jassssduuuwiittt! -Nike's wise word :)

#justdoit

Gang public speaking of coz with Mee Hong, Shrul the keyy-L boy, Aiman the local of Perth..lisian, Kama hispter, Leyla oh Leyla, Mai the mak-mak kinda one and  Mek  *wink*

Future of Prof Farid explaining theory thingy (you owe me loads of choc man)

the boys with most famous and hot prof madya aziz satar 

over counting wives bahahahaha *silau*

Us housemates exclude that attention seeker dudes at the back. 

So dramatism 

BM exam day at kubeng gajoh 

ok guys enough with shot now let's step into that freaking hall face with writing for new media



Guys let's hentam kromo ekjeng jap lagi ye set!



Wrong face expression during examination's day



my b.a.b.i so lovely in baju kurung haks

That Magic Word

A cute teenage girl came in her cuter's lecturer room.

No, not for the discussion thingy either about the all dissatisfaction that be kept in the girl's mind just to waiting the right moment to speak out loud to that cuter lecturer than the girl.

pehe dok ni?

Make it short, the girl entered the room to buy the brand new book of Interpersonal Communication by who?

that writer of course!

So, once the girl settled with the purchasing and ready to step outta the room the cuter lecturer than her said out of the blue

"Congrats."

Luckily, the girl fast loading to catch up what was the subject refer to of the saying of that 'congrats'.
She with full of smile on her face with a little pimple due to missing her Queen of da Zadora El Merinque (where is that country actually?)mommy damn so badly cause you know it is still the first week that the girl just started class for semester tu two.

So itu perkara norrrrmal kan kan? Kasi chance ah ye!

Ok we continue the story back again..

Where were we just now? Oh this is because of you mom.

So the girl smiled and felt so high.

Maigad is that can?

Okay we try once again.

So the girl smiled and replied gratefully with the magic word before she leaving the room with

Thank you :)

p/s: you know who is that cute girl right? But that cuter lecturer than the girl? Oh better the girl only knows cause she is super cute than you I bet.

Night world and have a nice day ahead

mucho love

colorful of life as these beautiful of flower make my heart always thinking of you my biyuuutipul mommy that crazy with bunga kembang pukul sploh :)

My Dear Salman Faris (Cutie Next Door)

Maka bermulalah pengembaraan semester dua!

Straight to the point - first class was Innovation and Creative Skills

Guess siapakah gerangan yang mengajar tadi?

My ex bhahaha!

Ex-rps (rakan pembimbing siswa) named En.Maskor

All in all I just can't say as it was only the very beginning and will update and pour out all what I go through coming soon- so beware

*wink*

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Okay frankly, I just need sometimes to adjust well I mean everything for my good sake too pheww...
Yeah adjusting which is kinda hard to make it but have to. Imagine that I had for more than a month of semester break so am writing this in post-semester-break-mood :(

Mama..I miss you damn so much
missing to be your private driver - drive you every morning to the work
cooking whatever my fav dishes - spaghetti, macaroni, choc cake, nasi cicoh budu with ikang singgang  uhhhh scrumptious bayybehh

**srrrp**


Muhammad Salman Al-Farisi - guy next my door that never fails to melt my heart
his cheeky voice, sulking like silly lady maigad, longing for the calling every time he out his house

"aunty...?ah kak...? ah kak..."

Oh man how can't I refuse to attend to this sweetheart? He's such a cutie pie that shine my day though

Hard to move on seriously even he's just only the kid of next door sobs :(

It's the bonding and LOVE that matter uh plisss don't grow up too fast my darling.

Ah kak cayangggg Salman! and of course aunty Queen your always best friend.

*sigh*

p/s: had phoned and talk to him just evening and to my concern that he has fever though missing so dearly of me haks haks. Well his teeth is coming out but I bet deep in his heart that he's missing me and da bibik right Salman? You just don't know how to put into words right baby? My mom said that and yeah it make sense.

I just love this cutie so much lillahi taala. May he be a good son to his parents and always be a sweetheart.
Exclude being a hot and player that one I would teach my way if it happened.

Horse riding with Ah Kak :)

Muahhh ciket kat reader yang sudi terjah ke sini Salman

Ah Kak Su aka bibik nak igit eeee larikkkk! Gila bapak bingit telinga bila budak ni jerit doyyyyy

Nak ball? Saiyyang dulu! And he without doubt did it  awww 

Awek wekwekwekwek *blerghhh* 

Percayalah I lafff you more than Ah Kak kalau awak bawa saya round naik basikal ni -Salman 

Last day of our play time together at late evening :(

uai aju2 ampai okok sena apa alam aju sekuntum unga ina (Salman's song get it understood by yourself kay.)

thanks for reading everybody! Muuuuuwaahh from Ah Kak Salman  <3

Finally Met For Real

"Let me tell him about this..." - Queen

while I was so mad in love enjoying the richness of the cream of red velvet

mmmm yummmehh! srrrrp

"No! Please.. he for sure would never recognized me though."

"Never mind." My Queen was out to find him.

I can clearly hear the witty yet talkative of him coming closer to the room.

"God, he's really coming." I murmured just getting ready to meet and greet in real.

And yeahhh he's in here with my Queen with kinda excited face to see who am I that even I myself dunno what my mom had told him about.

He was like oh really? With the cheeky smiling and whatsoever- uh man.

"Uh really? Tak perasan pun...eh?" bla bla bla bla...

"Yessss see...I've told that he would never recognized me that I was one of his Facebook friend all these while." Two in one I uttered to him and my mom.

Ok chill.

So now we've met in real. That's it. Glad to see ya the cheeky witty Doc Adrian! You cool bro.
Wish all the very best in whatever you do especially in the career, hope in future would see you be one of the renowned specialists and perhaps I can conduct an in person interview with you to be featured in any of tv show well who knows right? Ok I talk like a mom already.

Last but not least, cherish every moment in the life to the fullest alright peeps? We CAN do it!

Have a nice weekend annnnd...HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2016 to all Chinese!

Mucho lafff <3

Doctor or vogue model chatting in a store room?
Oh man, he can't definitely leaves that stethoscope even during lunch break!

I think he might be a super top model if he joins the modelling - no seriously LOL

High stairs from the left.

Olalalalala Bola Versi Kita-kita aje!

Ini sempena semangat Ola Bola!
tapi style dia beza sikit
sebabnya
tak kira apa sekali pun
sepak-baling-beracun
semua kita kasi pulun!

kau ado?

Tiap petang
kalau tak hujan membasah bumi
akanku dan 'bibik berpengetahuan tinggi ' beraksi
di taman tempat gelanggang kami
port kita orang
as usual.

watchhha!

Best gila best.
Zaman kanak-kanak ribena menerjah kembali dalam diri
yang jasad sudah pun besau ya ampun

*jap confused aku ni umur doploh satu ke duablas?*

I am really sure, and admit that I'm gonna miss all those moments.

Setelah kembali ke dunia semester dua di perth...lis.

Serius aku pasti rindu tahap gaban.

Tapi, that's life...inilah namanya pengorbanan.

Kalau tak masuk semester dua acaner nak grad cerdik!

pastu kalau tak grad acaner nak kerja baguih-baguih and then beli rumah cantik fully furnished cam Dato' Vida Qu Puteh tu?

T.H.I.N.K  S.M.A.R.T

coz there's no one else will comfort you unless you yourself. So happy working and have a nice day peeps!

Remember, be safe everyone :)

All were my new friendsss nonetheless, I'm the eldest - always (sigh)

 Hey! we can't sit back and have a talk and I'll decide which one of you guys I'll choose. 

Kinda busy

Uh whatever guys, I'm not that too desperate.

Cenggini kalau nak dibaling bolanya aduhhh bah- Manni

Hey boy, you nak kincing jangan kincing sini ma..cover sikit haiyaa.

boys over flower as always...guys which one? (none of these two of course..I knew haha) #budak2

Muhammad is fluent in Mandarin tell chuuu *thumb up*

Lari bahhhhhh, bola beracun kauuuu! MATI kang kena.

I don't even know the girls are so tough to make them lose - Qayum 

Have Faith

Jangan pernah lelah dengan semua ini

semuanya sementara 

sebelum ke alam sana

demi berehat selamanya

Jangan pernah lelah dengan semua ini

kerna ini dunia yang menipudayakan 

terpulang sama akal mahu berfikir

baik atau buruk

dosa dan pahala

Jangan pernah lelah dengan semua ini

bangkit dan berjuang habis habisan

pantang sebelum menyerah

tanpa berkata kalah sama sekali

Permainan dunia

terkadang menjerumus ke dalam gaung kekhilafan

terpesong dari landasan kebenaran

semua jadi goyah

jika tidak 

Have Faith

Taken from my darling Sony TX10 #MasjidTerapung

Jangan Pernah Jemu

Teruskan dalam mengejar cita

Demi tuhan dan diri

Tanpa lelah

Penuh cekal

Mengorak langkah

Mencipta kejayaan kecemerlangan

Kerna tiada yang tahu hari yang mendatang

Maka persiapkan dari sekarang

Telaah ilmu sungguh-sungguh

ingat.

I Heart You MY

Dear my beloved Malaysia,

I love you

you just have no idea of how much that I love you my darling

For all these while 

there's a lot that happening around 

mostly are not pretty good 

guess you all know what I meant right?

All in all

Dear Malaysia,

Happy Independence Day 

for 58th

Stay fabulous always and

get well soon.

Galau Hati

Gusar

Aku gusar

dalam keserabutann ini

Galau  turut memukul jiwa 

bikin tak keruan 

makin tak menentu dibuatnya.

tidak wajar andai disalahkan pada takdir

kerna tuhan bakal benci dan murka

maka air jernih terbit dari tubir mata

refleks akan segala ini

sekurangnya terluah sedikit rasa galau itu

tapi ...

aku harus tabah

dan aku ada tuhan

ALLAH

Untuk Aku Dari Aku

Ke hadapan diri aku,

kau kena kental 

kau kena cekal 

kau kena tabah

dengan semua ini

kau jadi kebal.

Jadi 

bertabahlah.

Just before I....

Dear you,

Hi.

Honestly I've been missing and longing everything about you

Missing of your voice

Missing your jokes

Missing of your laugh

Missing of your smile

Yet not pretty sure if you feel it the same way

of what kind of feeling I had to bear with right now.

Some how there's like emptiness when not hear from you

such everything what I did is not fall into its places.

I have no idea whether you have thrown your dumb or smartphone into your cat's mouth

or you not in purpose have been throwing it into the toilet bowl when you're 'investing'.

Yet even I try to stop from getting in touch with you, but it's still coming to me

you know

yes between us there's nothing relationship but we did knew each other after all

and we perhaps integrating each other in our own way indirectly.

There's no use of getting mad just because of you

though may increase my blood pressure from bad to worse some how.

Just before I pen off,

"call me, I miss your voice."

Bukan kad raya

Berlalulah sudah Ramadhan mulia

Syawal pula menampakkan diri

meraikan kemenangan yang dikecapi

 selama sebulan lamanya

menahan lapar dan dahaga 

serta nafsu seumpama

Andai ini ramadhan terakhir, terpaksa direlakan

selamat jalan buat diri sendiri

menempuh alam di dunia baru

setelah bumi ini

menghadap Yang Maha Esa

Allah

Cinta padanya mungkin belum menyeluruh

malah tidak sepenuhnya lagi

diisi dengan amal ibadat yang diredhai

menggapai rahmat satu-satunya dari Dia

mengumpul pahala berlipat ganda

Melaluinya selama sebulan bagaikan sekilat petir

sangat sekejap dan tak terasa

sudah di penghujung

dengan penuh teruja di hati

menyambut hari yang dinanti

Maaf maaf dan maaf

buat kamu kamu dan kamu

yang sedang membaca kata demi kata di ruangan ini

kiranya sudilah terima maaf ini yang tak seberapa

andai ada patah kata yang secara tak sengaja mahupun sengaja 

telah terguris atau mengguris hati kalian

kira kosong-kosong alright?

Pada yang balik ke village la katakan

tolonglah pandu dengan berhemah ya semua

beringat-ingatlah sebelum kena

kalau dah kena menangis tak berlagu tau

Muah, salam mubarak peeps!

                                      

Bukan kerna nama

Dalam keghairahan jari-jemari rancak menari di atas papan kekunci

tidak dipeduli akan siapa gerangan yang sudi membaca

barangkali dari golongan biasa-biasa atau sederhana hinggalah ke istana

mungkin si putera ganteng?

atau si jelitawan yang hanya merenung komputernya sehingga lewat malam?

Ops

( anda tahu dan kenal siapa anda)

Namun demikian sukacita dimaklumkan 

kalian sangat dialukan di sini :)

dan moga enjoy meluangkan masa 

mengerdipkan mata membaca setiap perkataan di sini

melepaskan diri dari kesibukan kerja dan keletihan minda seketika

Terima kasih sudi menjengah ya

maaf andai setiap tulisan punya terlebih mahu terkurang

sungguh tidak disengajakan

semuanya dari tulus hati diri yang serba kekurangan

dan aku menulis bukan kerna nama.

muah!

                                            

#Syukur Selalu

Dear Ramadhan,

finally we meet again

how happy I am indeed so grateful 

but I admit 

that sometimes I'm reckless and not cautious

so irritating right?

Yeah I knew

I sometimes, missed how so much His blessings into me

that I forget to thanked Him 

at least by saying 'Alhamdulillah'

but when I remember straight away will say it

Realized it or not 

a lot of good and kind people has left us for forever

passed away

only memories with them just kept along 

together with tears

Life is life

must be carry on

no matter what

until it come to 

T.H.E    E.N.D